Cause people keep asking me, thought I'd do one mass thingy XD
I will be having to de-acc Naughty in 20 days, because that's when her game time runs out, and I have run out of iskies :P Cept one plex which I will save for when I want to activate the account again. And I can't log in and play anyways, I was just keeping the skill queue going. Awesome logi toon ftw! XD (Actually not far from true- all my logi skills have gone up to almost perfect. XD)
Anyways, I'll still try and blog where I can about EVE, but my recent... frustration.. has dulled any enthusiasm I had for events that are streamed from in game. But whatever. lol.
I'll be back when I can! :D
Also, next post will probably be about EVE Nottingham meet :) Photos included if I can get em :P
About Me
- Jessi Joy (Naughty Cargo)
- My name is Jessi Joy. In EVE Online I am Naughty Cargo, currently a member of Shadow Cartel. I am a 22-year old Aussie chick who loves playing computer games, being cute and writing. This is part of my story, where I can talk about whatever I want. Welcome to the madhouse!
Tuesday, September 9, 2014
Sunday, September 7, 2014
Dissapointment
So... for those who haven't been watching the AT, our team got knocked out yesterday. But not of their own doing. The fact that the team had logi lost us the match. I have always defended and admired CCP for the way they created such an awesome game, but today I lost most, if not all, the respect I had for them. Let me explain....
TEST vs Pasta Syndicate. All good, whatever. But after the match, there was a problem with one of the TEST players, and the whole alliance tournament system had to be reset. After a delay of about 40 minutes, the match of our guys and Afterlife started, and instantly, anyone watching the stream with half a brain would have noticed something was wrong. The ships were just disappearing. No armour, no shield, just structure.
What we watching didn't know was that in local in the system, both teams were typing frantically in local chat with CCP, telling them that everything was botched- drones weren't working, damage wasn't showing- there wasn't even notifications. But, nothing was done, and the match went on as usual -.- the commentators completely brushing over the fact that things were being basically one-shotted. Twitch chat meanwhile is going crazy, saying something is wrong, that there's something wrong, and to start again, do a rematch, anything. But the match continues, goes into overtime. Two golems remained for each team, both on equal points, and the match ended up going into overtime and reverse TIDI (for those who haven't watched, in the event there is equal points at the end of the 10 minute match, it goes into overtime, where TIDI speeds up, and everything moves quicker).
If the tie still stands after 5 extra minutes, the winner is called by whoever had the higher DPS bar reading at the start of the match. Which of course, because our team had two logi frigs, was Afterlife by only about 200 dps.
Now apart from everyone on comms getting angry and frustrated and upset, I hate to think what the team was feeling. They'd been doing so well all through the tournament, and then, to be knocked out because the system was botched..... But of course, in the usual manner of CCP when things go wrong, it was swept under the rug at the time, and the commentators didn't mention a thing. Twitch chat was still calling BS, but those on the stream just did not give a damn. Yes the next match was delayed as they sorted out the problems, but it came at the cost of our team, a group of people who put a lot of time, effort, thought and isk into what is supposed to be the peak PvP event of the year. One of the Vexor lossmails said it died with 69 damage. *sighs* ( http://eve-kill.net/?a=kill_detail&kll_id=25113976 ). Yeah... sure. Legit.
I don't usually like EVE-Kill, but its easy to group the relevant killmails so you can look at them. http://eve-kill.net/?a=kill_related&kll_id=25114893
Of course, there was no word from our dear devs for the duration of the rest of the match, even after Asa, the team captain, posted this message in the AT EVE forums:
"Hopefully CCP will sort this before any more matches, but this is a warning to the teams about to fight.
Drones will only shoot once, then stop until you tell them to attack again. Drone assist is obviously broken by this.
You will have no visual cue to damage being taken - enemy ships will show full shield until they hit hull. Same thing happens on fleet WL. Makes Logi pretty interesting. Basically if someone says they get red-boxxed assume they're taking damage even if you can't see it.
gg CCP
Asa "
Let me get our *wonderful* -.- dev CCP Fozzie to explain. -.-
During today's Alliance Tournament XII matches some unusual issues occurred and we want to catch you all up on what happened and what our response has been.
After the Test vs Pasta match one pilot experienced a bug that prevented him from being moved out of the system and caused a delay while we worked to get him back home. We eventually remapped the solar system containing the tournament activities to a new node.
Unfortunately when the system was remapped, a duplicate copy of the Crimewatch process started running behind the scenes and caused unusual behavior in the next match.
For the match between Shadow Cartel and Afterlife, both teams experienced identical issues with modules and drones needing to be manually activated instead of auto-cycling, and with damage not appearing on ships until they hit structure.
Unfortunately the players involved did not notice the issues during the pre-match time when we could have corrected them before we started.
This circumstance falls under the following clause of the Alliance Tournament rules:
In accordance with our pre-existing stated policy surrounding issues of this sort, the match is valid and the results will stand. We are very sorry for the negative experience that these teams encountered in this match.
The issue that caused these symptoms has now been resolved and we do not anticipate any similar problems for the rest of the Tournament."
All fair enough yeah, whatever. But the bone I have to pick with this, and with everyone else is this: from the SAME rules that they pulled that 'quote' from....
"The following restrictions are in place after teams warp to the arena beacon, until the match begins:
How, without being able to do any of these things, do the teams work out that things are not working as they should?!???? What... the.... fuck? A lot of other people in the thread displayed the same sort of thought, and this is the reply, to a small one liner from Asa 'We were explicitly told not to launch drones. Are you suggesting we should have shot at each other?" from CCP Veritas this time mind you:
"I'm talking to the referee to clarify what should and shouldn't be done at the pre-warp beacons but in general shooting eachother a little bit is a good idea."
.....You have got... to be kidding me.
Needless to say, everyone was pissed, and the fact that this was totally unacceptable, out of order and completely useless was not missed. For once there was something wrong that could be proved was wrong, but could we go back and rematch? Nope. No way. Would screw up the carefully stuck to timetable of the AT. -.- Ha. Ha. Ha. Jokes :P No such thing as an 'on time' tournament with these ones.
We go on later in the thread to find out that we'll have our entry plex refunded (5 plex yay -.-), and we'll get some extra rattlesnake skins on top of our 15 plex winnings and other skins for getting to top 16. Yipee... I feel so much better now..... >.>
TL;DR- I am dissapointed in CCP. I find this totally unacceptable, and it seems to be a general concesus that SC will not be participating in the tournament next year (though this is not an official alliance comment- just the reading of the situation by myself in our forums). It was gut wrenching to put so much effort and time into it, and to be eliminated in such a crude and ignorant way.
I'll finish off with a quick comment I threw up on the thread among all the others (although it is worth a read if you want to see exactly what I am so annoyed about):
"Obviously the items have been all sorted and plex refunded and whatnot, but I agree something should be said. What really disappointed me was that watching, no comment was made. Not one comment on the stream, even though twitch chat was alight with complaints and calls out. Obviously it is all just an unfortunate mistake that just happened to lead to a very disappointing turn of events. :/
A bad day for Shadow Cartel, what with the incursion in home system too, but hats off to the team <3 You put a lot into this guys, and you held your own right up to the end. <3 Asa <3
Let's hope, for the sake of other teams more than anything, something like this can't happen again. Please sort it out CCP, cause this sorta puts a dampener on what was, and should be, a highlight of the EVE calender. "
TEST vs Pasta Syndicate. All good, whatever. But after the match, there was a problem with one of the TEST players, and the whole alliance tournament system had to be reset. After a delay of about 40 minutes, the match of our guys and Afterlife started, and instantly, anyone watching the stream with half a brain would have noticed something was wrong. The ships were just disappearing. No armour, no shield, just structure.
What we watching didn't know was that in local in the system, both teams were typing frantically in local chat with CCP, telling them that everything was botched- drones weren't working, damage wasn't showing- there wasn't even notifications. But, nothing was done, and the match went on as usual -.- the commentators completely brushing over the fact that things were being basically one-shotted. Twitch chat meanwhile is going crazy, saying something is wrong, that there's something wrong, and to start again, do a rematch, anything. But the match continues, goes into overtime. Two golems remained for each team, both on equal points, and the match ended up going into overtime and reverse TIDI (for those who haven't watched, in the event there is equal points at the end of the 10 minute match, it goes into overtime, where TIDI speeds up, and everything moves quicker).
If the tie still stands after 5 extra minutes, the winner is called by whoever had the higher DPS bar reading at the start of the match. Which of course, because our team had two logi frigs, was Afterlife by only about 200 dps.
Now apart from everyone on comms getting angry and frustrated and upset, I hate to think what the team was feeling. They'd been doing so well all through the tournament, and then, to be knocked out because the system was botched..... But of course, in the usual manner of CCP when things go wrong, it was swept under the rug at the time, and the commentators didn't mention a thing. Twitch chat was still calling BS, but those on the stream just did not give a damn. Yes the next match was delayed as they sorted out the problems, but it came at the cost of our team, a group of people who put a lot of time, effort, thought and isk into what is supposed to be the peak PvP event of the year. One of the Vexor lossmails said it died with 69 damage. *sighs* ( http://eve-kill.net/?a=kill_detail&kll_id=25113976 ). Yeah... sure. Legit.
I don't usually like EVE-Kill, but its easy to group the relevant killmails so you can look at them. http://eve-kill.net/?a=kill_related&kll_id=25114893
Of course, there was no word from our dear devs for the duration of the rest of the match, even after Asa, the team captain, posted this message in the AT EVE forums:
---------
"Hopefully CCP will sort this before any more matches, but this is a warning to the teams about to fight.
Drones will only shoot once, then stop until you tell them to attack again. Drone assist is obviously broken by this.
You will have no visual cue to damage being taken - enemy ships will show full shield until they hit hull. Same thing happens on fleet WL. Makes Logi pretty interesting. Basically if someone says they get red-boxxed assume they're taking damage even if you can't see it.
gg CCP
Asa "
---------
No response was given on that thread, but a little while later, the dear devs spoke up in their own thread, ( https://forums.eveonline.com/default.aspx?g=posts&t=371924 ) acknowledging that there had been a problem, but basically, in a very obvious way, blaming the fact there would be no rematch on the teams themselves because they 'didn't check their ships'.
Let me get our *wonderful* -.- dev CCP Fozzie to explain. -.-
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"Hello everyone.During today's Alliance Tournament XII matches some unusual issues occurred and we want to catch you all up on what happened and what our response has been.
After the Test vs Pasta match one pilot experienced a bug that prevented him from being moved out of the system and caused a delay while we worked to get him back home. We eventually remapped the solar system containing the tournament activities to a new node.
Unfortunately when the system was remapped, a duplicate copy of the Crimewatch process started running behind the scenes and caused unusual behavior in the next match.
For the match between Shadow Cartel and Afterlife, both teams experienced identical issues with modules and drones needing to be manually activated instead of auto-cycling, and with damage not appearing on ships until they hit structure.
Unfortunately the players involved did not notice the issues during the pre-match time when we could have corrected them before we started.
This circumstance falls under the following clause of the Alliance Tournament rules:
Quote:
"The
match simulation is taken as is. Teams are advised to spend the pre
warp-in time to verify that their ships are completely operational."
In accordance with our pre-existing stated policy surrounding issues of this sort, the match is valid and the results will stand. We are very sorry for the negative experience that these teams encountered in this match.
The issue that caused these symptoms has now been resolved and we do not anticipate any similar problems for the rest of the Tournament."
---------
All fair enough yeah, whatever. But the bone I have to pick with this, and with everyone else is this: from the SAME rules that they pulled that 'quote' from....
"The following restrictions are in place after teams warp to the arena beacon, until the match begins:
- Locking players before the match starts is NOT allowed.
- Activating aggressive or targeted modules before the match starts is NOT allowed.
- Launching drones before the match starts is NOT allowed.
- Moving before the match starts is NOT allowed.
How, without being able to do any of these things, do the teams work out that things are not working as they should?!???? What... the.... fuck? A lot of other people in the thread displayed the same sort of thought, and this is the reply, to a small one liner from Asa 'We were explicitly told not to launch drones. Are you suggesting we should have shot at each other?" from CCP Veritas this time mind you:
"I'm talking to the referee to clarify what should and shouldn't be done at the pre-warp beacons but in general shooting eachother a little bit is a good idea."
.....You have got... to be kidding me.
Needless to say, everyone was pissed, and the fact that this was totally unacceptable, out of order and completely useless was not missed. For once there was something wrong that could be proved was wrong, but could we go back and rematch? Nope. No way. Would screw up the carefully stuck to timetable of the AT. -.- Ha. Ha. Ha. Jokes :P No such thing as an 'on time' tournament with these ones.
We go on later in the thread to find out that we'll have our entry plex refunded (5 plex yay -.-), and we'll get some extra rattlesnake skins on top of our 15 plex winnings and other skins for getting to top 16. Yipee... I feel so much better now..... >.>
TL;DR- I am dissapointed in CCP. I find this totally unacceptable, and it seems to be a general concesus that SC will not be participating in the tournament next year (though this is not an official alliance comment- just the reading of the situation by myself in our forums). It was gut wrenching to put so much effort and time into it, and to be eliminated in such a crude and ignorant way.
I'll finish off with a quick comment I threw up on the thread among all the others (although it is worth a read if you want to see exactly what I am so annoyed about):
"Obviously the items have been all sorted and plex refunded and whatnot, but I agree something should be said. What really disappointed me was that watching, no comment was made. Not one comment on the stream, even though twitch chat was alight with complaints and calls out. Obviously it is all just an unfortunate mistake that just happened to lead to a very disappointing turn of events. :/
A bad day for Shadow Cartel, what with the incursion in home system too, but hats off to the team <3 You put a lot into this guys, and you held your own right up to the end. <3 Asa <3
Let's hope, for the sake of other teams more than anything, something like this can't happen again. Please sort it out CCP, cause this sorta puts a dampener on what was, and should be, a highlight of the EVE calender. "
Monday, September 1, 2014
The Alliance Tournament: The Other Side of the Coin
So, I was trawling my twitter for ideas for my next blog post (I'm determined to keep writing this time), and the wonderful Spanky Ikkala (honourable mention to Alek Azam for suggesting too) gave me the great idea of writing about the AT- an event that many know is happening, but most really don't care about. Unless they are in the alliances in question!
But something somewhat little, but still surprising popped into my head, triggered by the thought of this tournament in question.
I was sitting on comms tonight and talking to a few of the guys and mentioned how quiet it is in our Lobby channel. There was a bunch of people there and not a sound except for the odd 'hi' when someone new enters and greets the room- FYI: This is normal for Lobby. But it occured to me, that the last few weekends, we've had a more talkative and conversational comms, due to the event called the Alliance Tournament.
As those of you who have been watching know, Shadow Cartel is partaking in this PvP orgy, for the third time. We have an elite team that has been training and testing and talking and planning and fitting for weeks.
They even made an advert (which I think is awesome, and very appropriate :P):
But something somewhat little, but still surprising popped into my head, triggered by the thought of this tournament in question.
I was sitting on comms tonight and talking to a few of the guys and mentioned how quiet it is in our Lobby channel. There was a bunch of people there and not a sound except for the odd 'hi' when someone new enters and greets the room- FYI: This is normal for Lobby. But it occured to me, that the last few weekends, we've had a more talkative and conversational comms, due to the event called the Alliance Tournament.
As those of you who have been watching know, Shadow Cartel is partaking in this PvP orgy, for the third time. We have an elite team that has been training and testing and talking and planning and fitting for weeks.
They even made an advert (which I think is awesome, and very appropriate :P):
But with all the focus on the team, the rest of the alliance sort of falls by the wayside, and unfortunately, this leads to less content for those not on the team, less focus, less funding (not that many people in SC need money help :P), less ops and in general, far less attention.
This is the moment you find out who are the content creators when the big, bad, awesome usual FC's are off doing their thing and representing our awesomeness.
For me personally, this is the first time I have been in an alliance that has been part of such an illustrious competition. It adds a new aspect to the event that I didn't quite anticipate. I'm actually quite invested in what happens! As is a whole bunch of people that I regularly commune with! What a wonder! I can groan, scream, shout, freak out and laugh along with other people while I'm watching a very tense match with our team. (For the record, the SC matches this year have been incredibly exciting... and tense. And close. lol). It's great! It makes me feel a sense of camaraderie, which I greatly appreciate, particularly not being able to log in, and also makes me feel less stupid watching the CCP twitch stream during a match with my hands over my eyes, watching through my fingers and finding it harder to breath. :P (In the case of the PL vs SC match- seriously, if you haven't watched it, do so.)
It's sort of fun all converging on comms in our 'Watching AT' channel, which at any other time is called 'Not Watching AT', and commenting and laughing and shouting at whatever is going on at the time. But then, inevitably, somewhere among the stream of people filtering in you hear it (if you have your alert voices turned on :P) 'User was moved from your channel'. A stream of good lucks follow as the great comms swap takes place. Then suddenly, it stops. The team has moved to their channel, and are getting ready to show the other teams exactly what they can do. The A Team indeed!
It's then that silence falls, the next few matches are watched and then... the countdown. The intro starts, the ads play and then suddenly, it's Shadow Cartel vs Some Other Great Opponent in The World of Internet Spaceships! Whispers are made in channel, bets are taken on who's going to derp first. Some that are feeling lucky will try and predict how it's going to go for us. Then, another few seconds, time.... and GO!
Suddenly, everyone is on the same page. There's maybe the odd comment if something astonishing happens, an exclamation when someone boundaries, and then a little yell as things explode! A tense moment and suddenly comms is bursting with nervous energy, people begging and cheering and ranting! And then.... all things gone well... a cheering! You can almost feel the relief and the excitement of your fellow members, people start laughing and joking and pointing out the biggest derps to each other.
A few minutes later and the team files back in, heroes returning from the field, laughing along with us and reliving the fight and the tense and sharing with us their stories of what happened- the real inside look. They all get a pat on the back and a 'well done', and then there's a quiet satisfaction of a job well done. This random group of people from all walks of life all over the internet, some of whom have nothing else in common other than a computer game come together and create something awesome.
Everyone makes a big deal of the AT, and sometimes, though it seems like the be all and end all, in a way, it is important, both for morale, the confidence and the pride of the alliance in question. Fits are ridiculed, piloting choices are scoffed at and comp decisions are praised by one and all around this one tournament.
But the AT, as far as I see it, in a good, close knit, solid alliance, brings it together, allowing pretty much everyone, for once, to be on the same page. Yes there's less normal fleets and no roams and, god forbid, poco's fall by the wayside.... (unless you're in fact, in Shadow Cartel, in which case Bagger will remind you exactly what SC's number one role is in the universe of New Eden. (See: Poco Defence/Reinforcement), but it's all totally worth it.
And who doesn't love being able to make fun of their alliance mates when they derp in front of thousands of EVE players? :P (See: Good Natured Mocking that Allows Bonding Between Testosterone-Filled Men)
Also, for those of you who didn't notice....
Best channel in our comms :P
Saturday, August 30, 2014
Where Did I Go? Plus, England Update and Storytime :P
Soooo..... this thing still exists! Hallelujah? Maybe. :P
I'M BACK BITCHEZ!!!!! XD
Okay, thank God I don't ACTUALLY talk like that...
Hey guys :) It's been a while. I don't know how many people actually check out this place anymore, but welcome if you do. I believe my blog has been linked in a few places now in relation to the EVE Nottingham meet that is in TWO WEEKS (So excited!! XD) so who knows, maybe I have new readers! Yay!
Anyways, fan girl enthusiasm over. Let's get down to some actual stuff. :) I'm not quite sure what exactly what I was gonna talk about except letting you know I'm still alive.
As I've been still alive, I've been watching the Alliance Tournament. Now, not being able to log into EVE at the moment has started making me go just a tiny little batshit crazy about the game, and the AT has provided me with a wonderful outlet in the art of blowing up spaceships. Sad I can't blow things up myself, but there you go. Need to buy myself a new computer. But yes. My dear alliance unfortunately got beat last weekend by the incredibly lucky PL who somehow has got through the last three rounds... okay only the first two were on luck. But its been great watching and learning and seeing how all these things go.
This is the first AT I've ever watched since playing the game, as before, I wasn't in any sort of alliance that participated, so to be honest, I didn't really give a shit. But now, my beloved Shadow Cartel is kicking ass (or trying to), and I can't help but feel proud at the moments that are great, and sad at the moments that are not so great. Hellz, in that match against PL (go check it out if you haven't seen it- it was soooooo close!) I stopped breathing at one point and was watching through my fingers! Tense! Also... I might have squeaked a couple of times on comms in panic, but that can be ignored. >.> hehe
Apart from dear alliance, I've also been cheering on Feign Disorder aka 7-2. My dear friends from Molden Heath have been doing alright in their first AT, although today unfortunately was not their lucky day, and they are now in the losers bracket. But good on em! :D They had a couple of entertaining matches so ride on 7-2! I don't care if you rejected me :P You be good people. ^.^ (Plus, if you hadn't of rejected me I wouldn't have got into SC and that would be a very, very sad thing- cept to the people who would love me NOT being in alliance... paq. trouser... maybe a few others. :P)
I am grateful to Bagger (the most awesome CEO evar!) and Till, and the bunch of other people who have let me stay in this wonderful group so long. I feel incredible loyalty and thankfulness to you all, and hope that one day I can repay the trust and amusement and effort that you've given to me. Particularly you Bagger. I don't know if you accept hugs, but if you do, you might just get one at Nottingham meet just for being awesome and letting me hang around. heh.
Admittedly, I have been hanging around in various comms a lot more, but again, boredom is a bitch combined with the non-ability to log in. I never expected EVE withdrawals to be a thing, but apparently they are. I'm starting to live and breath meta-gaming. It's a legit problem. I think I need a proper hobby.
Speaking of hobbies, I'm going to go off on a completely irrelated tangent and tell you about loom bands. They're a strange little thing that was designed for kids- yeah okay, some kids toys are great right... lego... kinnex.... etc. But they're basically rubber bands that you make into awesome patterns and bracelets and pendants and teddy bears and clothes and all sorts of little nifty things. I've become far too addicted to them, see?
And that was only my first few! XD
Anyways, another tangent, and a slightly longer one :P
For those who don't know, though I think you all do, I moved to England July 14th. I've been here ever since. Hopefully, I'll get a job soon and I can stay a bit longer. It's been an interesting month and a half already though. STORY TIME!
So, I got sent over here with an agency called The London Pub Company, which sets up live-in work for people from all over the world in the UK (they have pubs everywhere in the UK- supposedly), and they actually did find me a placement (as they should have for the money we stupidly paid them). It was at a place called The Running Horses, in a little cute village, quintessentially British called Mickleham. It even had a cute little church opposite it.
The job was minimum wage sure, but the area was nice (and rich!), and the manager seemed friendly enough. I had a wonderful friend that helped me move down there, and we had a great time road tripping it from Stoke (where I had been staying with my grandparents) down to good old Surrey. We debated dropping in to see W0wbagger at work, and then thought he wouldn't appreciate that, so we went on to the pub and all was well. Pulled up next to the most gorgeous pub in the cutest town and things couldn't possibly be too bad could they?
We met the manager- who seemed a bit... vague, but I brushed this off as a busy day or something. Until he showed me to my room. It hadn't been cleaned. He'd known I would be arriving that day for the last 5, and yet he hadn't had time to find someone to change the sheets on the bed, aquire pillows, clean up the dirty plates and cutlery that was lying there, nor had cleaned, dusted or so much as seemed to care about the room at all. Manager left us to it and me and my dear friend started cleaning up, discovering along the way that 1) there was no powerpoints in the room, 2) there was a dog that lived next door and had free reign of the hall, 3) the closet door was falling off and 4) the window wouldn't stay open without the use of two large sticks that had been provided for such an event.
It looked a bit better after the cleanup, so on to buying the things in town that we needed. As there was no kitchen facilities for live-in staff (cept a microwave.... >.>) we went into town and brought me a toaster, along with some basics, bread, milk, cereal, etc. We also brought some pillows, of which had not been able to find any in the room or even in the cupboards for the guest rooms of the hotel. We also brought an iron, because white work shirts and black pants need to be taken care of, and they don't look good all wrinkled. And there seemed to be none there to use. After settling in and begging my friend not to leave me here (he had to leave, but it was a worth a try), I had a bite to eat then wandered downstairs in boredom, deciding why not set off on the right foot and lend a hand somewhere?
Of course, being asked to polish wine glasses, I get a tad too enthusiastic with one and the flute shatters in my hand, cutting my finger. Great omen that. What could go wrong? It didn't take me long to realise if there was a first aid kit in the building, no one knew where it was, let alone where some 'plasters' would be (I confused everyone by asking for bandaids, until I realised that's very Australian of me, and changed my word use). I would find out the next day that while there was a first aid box... there was nothing in it. Pity that.
Next day, and I'm stuffed straight into the scrum. No matter that no paperwork or official 'you're employed now' stuff had taken place, I was being put to work!
Now... the thing about this pub, that some people love and some people (Mostly the front-of-house staff) hate is the fact that... well.... let me just show you and maybe you'll understand....
Bowties. Nowhere in my job description did it say that I was expected to wear a bowtie, and in hindsight, had I known ANYTHING important about this job, I wouldn't have accepted it. Also, when I took those photos, I'll have to note, I felt no inclination to smile for the photo, as I had just spent 40 pounds on the shirt, as M&S was the only shop in the town nearby- Dorking. FYI: 40 pounds equates to about $80).
(Side note: that desk with the towel on it was my 'ironing board', and to get power, I ended up letting the wall meet a screwdriver, and made a convenient hole in the wall that allowed me to feed the powercord for an extension lead (which of course I had to buy myself >.>) from the powerpoint in the hallway.)
Needless to say, I lasted a week. One week + 1 day. I fell in love with the locals (lovely people who were always willing to lend a hand, or an ear, or some advice) and the area (absolutely gorgeous, and I'm dissapointed I wasn't able to stay), but I knew if I stayed longer I would go insane slowly but surely- my poor friend had his phone going off all the time with my needy 'GOD I CANT DO THIS' over and over again, with some complaint about something. Patient guy that one. <3 He knows who he is. <3
Said friend also picked me up to take me home, back to my grandparents, and back to Stoke exactly 10 days after I had arrived. What a gem <3
In hindsight, and after being paid for my week of work, maybe I could have stuck it out a bit more, but to be honest, I could feel my mind already slipping away, so methinks I got out just in time.
EDIT: I have since found out that two of the chefs have left, and 5 of the staff have given notice that they're leaving to go to uni/college/school next month. I DEFINATELY got out just in time.
Anyways, that behind me, and back home and happy with my family, bowtie unhappy turns into this: my usual happy bouncy self :) (Along with stylish new coat- cause I came to England with no waterproof coats... lol).
This trip has made me learn A LOT about life and myself and people, and I copy here a facebook status I made at the start of the week- a moral booster of sorts at a moment I was feeling very, VERY dejected.
COPY FROM FACEBOOK:
I was talking to my dear Daddy after having some misgivings, and he said among lots of fatherly wisdom (if he doesn't mind me sharing a few of his words): 'We can bring you home but I think for the moment this experience will be priceless'.
It made me really think for a second, and I've decided that each week, I'm gonna share 5 things that I've learnt about life/myself/thoughts Probably more for my sake than yours, but why not I'm gonna do more than 5, to make up for the month I've been away now.
So... Things I've learnt about life/myself/others
1. I really, really REALLY need to work on my budgeting/money management skills.
2. Eating out one night each week, while amazingly awesome, does not help ones waistline.
3. I do not miss my university course/life/teachers at all. Not even slightly. While much more difficult to manage and rather inconvenient at times, I much prefer a tad more independence- and not being told what I HAVE to write is doing wonders for my creativeness. (I'm working on a short novel )
4. This sort of leads on from the last one- I like independence. While I've enjoyed a very sheltered, supported life with my parents, I can't do that for the rest of my life, and there's something refreshing and terrifying about being able to make my own decisions and not have to ask permission for everything. I like it.
5. On the other hand, I miss living at home and not having to make as many decisions! XD
6. I love, love, love, LOVE my family. Both my immediate and extended. It's that old 'you don't know what you got till its gone'. I miss my daddy and mummy and sister and brother more than I can explain, but at the same time...
7. Social media is totally underrated. The internet is a wonderful tool that I've only just realized is extremely useful in communicating. I mean, I always knew it, but its really sunk in now you know?
8. Mobile phone companies can suck it. (Pardon my rudeness lol). They charge way too much to stuff around with phones way too much to do something that is not really very good in the end anyways.
9. I really love pork scratchings. I just don't like the ones that still have hair on them. Ick. lol
10. Don't underestimate the usefulness of ones internet/online friends. Most, if not all from Britain from that awesome world of EVE Online have been incredibly helpful. And of course, don't trust them straight away all that stuff, and still be careful, but don't underestimate their awesomeness
11. Stand up for what you believe in, and understand that you don't have to settle for less. This one seems a little odd, but after the very crappy job I was given, and the need to get out of their, don't feel guilted into staying somewhere that makes you deeply unhappy. Just don't. Don't compromise on your standards.
12. Gratitude gratitude gratitude. I've had so much given to me in my life, and I'm grateful for every tiny bit of it. I just wish I'd been more thankful in moments where I could have shown it.
13. Hugs are totally underrated.
14. Surrey is an absolutely stunning area of England, and I will miss it for sure.
15. Honeybees are to be loved, hornets are to die horrible horrible deaths.
16. Driving in a pain in the ass and public transport in England is pretty damn convenient.
17. Home Bargains is the best shop in the history of ever.
18. It's okay to cry. Just use those tears to make yourself stronger, not weaker. Feel what you need to feel, then move on. This is still my greatest struggle, and always will be, but I'll get there.
So... I've probably forgotten a bunch, and its quite a varied mix, but there we are. heh. ^.^ Have fun with those.
A short and sweet list... sort of... but its all true, and its all stuff that I have learned from branching out into the big, bad world by myself for the first time. Some days I wonder, 'why the fuck did I move to the other side of the world to try this?' But I know, one day, I'm sure I'm going to look back on this and realise, it was totally worth it, whether I get a job or not.
To those who are my age, who haven't quite had the confidence to move out of their comfort zones yet- do it. It's highly scary, and hard and somewhat intimidating, and yes, you WILL make mistakes. But honestly, its worth every other moment of positiveness. Already I feel I am a stronger, more independant person, even when every other day I have a brief moment of sadness that my family is on the other side of the world (FYI: Homesickness is a bitch). For those of you who have done this before, and warned me it was going to be hard, you were right. This is hard. lol.
And for all you British friends.... anyone have any jobs available around Stoke on Trent? I'll work for minimum wage? XD haha.
Back to EVE for the closing moment, as I'm sure most of you were hoping happened a lot sooner, but to all the UK members out there.... get your ass to Nottingham on the 13th of September. :P I wanna meet as many of you nerds as I can while I'm here, and as I have booked my hotel already, I will most definately be making my presence known on the Friday (the 12th). If anyone else plans on going early, let me know and lets catch up! (Though I am intending to visit Nottingham Castle on arrival :P)
Let's bring the awesome weekend on! :D
Cheers guys! :) And hopefully I can talk your ear off more often now :P
P.S. If anyone actually just read all that..... you're a champion and deserve a medal. XD
(A picture my mum sent me at a time I was feeling particularly down, and is now my wallpaper)
I'M BACK BITCHEZ!!!!! XD
Okay, thank God I don't ACTUALLY talk like that...
Hey guys :) It's been a while. I don't know how many people actually check out this place anymore, but welcome if you do. I believe my blog has been linked in a few places now in relation to the EVE Nottingham meet that is in TWO WEEKS (So excited!! XD) so who knows, maybe I have new readers! Yay!
Anyways, fan girl enthusiasm over. Let's get down to some actual stuff. :) I'm not quite sure what exactly what I was gonna talk about except letting you know I'm still alive.
As I've been still alive, I've been watching the Alliance Tournament. Now, not being able to log into EVE at the moment has started making me go just a tiny little batshit crazy about the game, and the AT has provided me with a wonderful outlet in the art of blowing up spaceships. Sad I can't blow things up myself, but there you go. Need to buy myself a new computer. But yes. My dear alliance unfortunately got beat last weekend by the incredibly lucky PL who somehow has got through the last three rounds... okay only the first two were on luck. But its been great watching and learning and seeing how all these things go.
This is the first AT I've ever watched since playing the game, as before, I wasn't in any sort of alliance that participated, so to be honest, I didn't really give a shit. But now, my beloved Shadow Cartel is kicking ass (or trying to), and I can't help but feel proud at the moments that are great, and sad at the moments that are not so great. Hellz, in that match against PL (go check it out if you haven't seen it- it was soooooo close!) I stopped breathing at one point and was watching through my fingers! Tense! Also... I might have squeaked a couple of times on comms in panic, but that can be ignored. >.> hehe
Apart from dear alliance, I've also been cheering on Feign Disorder aka 7-2. My dear friends from Molden Heath have been doing alright in their first AT, although today unfortunately was not their lucky day, and they are now in the losers bracket. But good on em! :D They had a couple of entertaining matches so ride on 7-2! I don't care if you rejected me :P You be good people. ^.^ (Plus, if you hadn't of rejected me I wouldn't have got into SC and that would be a very, very sad thing- cept to the people who would love me NOT being in alliance... paq. trouser... maybe a few others. :P)
I am grateful to Bagger (the most awesome CEO evar!) and Till, and the bunch of other people who have let me stay in this wonderful group so long. I feel incredible loyalty and thankfulness to you all, and hope that one day I can repay the trust and amusement and effort that you've given to me. Particularly you Bagger. I don't know if you accept hugs, but if you do, you might just get one at Nottingham meet just for being awesome and letting me hang around. heh.
Admittedly, I have been hanging around in various comms a lot more, but again, boredom is a bitch combined with the non-ability to log in. I never expected EVE withdrawals to be a thing, but apparently they are. I'm starting to live and breath meta-gaming. It's a legit problem. I think I need a proper hobby.
Speaking of hobbies, I'm going to go off on a completely irrelated tangent and tell you about loom bands. They're a strange little thing that was designed for kids- yeah okay, some kids toys are great right... lego... kinnex.... etc. But they're basically rubber bands that you make into awesome patterns and bracelets and pendants and teddy bears and clothes and all sorts of little nifty things. I've become far too addicted to them, see?
Anyways, another tangent, and a slightly longer one :P
For those who don't know, though I think you all do, I moved to England July 14th. I've been here ever since. Hopefully, I'll get a job soon and I can stay a bit longer. It's been an interesting month and a half already though. STORY TIME!
So, I got sent over here with an agency called The London Pub Company, which sets up live-in work for people from all over the world in the UK (they have pubs everywhere in the UK- supposedly), and they actually did find me a placement (as they should have for the money we stupidly paid them). It was at a place called The Running Horses, in a little cute village, quintessentially British called Mickleham. It even had a cute little church opposite it.
The job was minimum wage sure, but the area was nice (and rich!), and the manager seemed friendly enough. I had a wonderful friend that helped me move down there, and we had a great time road tripping it from Stoke (where I had been staying with my grandparents) down to good old Surrey. We debated dropping in to see W0wbagger at work, and then thought he wouldn't appreciate that, so we went on to the pub and all was well. Pulled up next to the most gorgeous pub in the cutest town and things couldn't possibly be too bad could they?
We met the manager- who seemed a bit... vague, but I brushed this off as a busy day or something. Until he showed me to my room. It hadn't been cleaned. He'd known I would be arriving that day for the last 5, and yet he hadn't had time to find someone to change the sheets on the bed, aquire pillows, clean up the dirty plates and cutlery that was lying there, nor had cleaned, dusted or so much as seemed to care about the room at all. Manager left us to it and me and my dear friend started cleaning up, discovering along the way that 1) there was no powerpoints in the room, 2) there was a dog that lived next door and had free reign of the hall, 3) the closet door was falling off and 4) the window wouldn't stay open without the use of two large sticks that had been provided for such an event.
It looked a bit better after the cleanup, so on to buying the things in town that we needed. As there was no kitchen facilities for live-in staff (cept a microwave.... >.>) we went into town and brought me a toaster, along with some basics, bread, milk, cereal, etc. We also brought some pillows, of which had not been able to find any in the room or even in the cupboards for the guest rooms of the hotel. We also brought an iron, because white work shirts and black pants need to be taken care of, and they don't look good all wrinkled. And there seemed to be none there to use. After settling in and begging my friend not to leave me here (he had to leave, but it was a worth a try), I had a bite to eat then wandered downstairs in boredom, deciding why not set off on the right foot and lend a hand somewhere?
Of course, being asked to polish wine glasses, I get a tad too enthusiastic with one and the flute shatters in my hand, cutting my finger. Great omen that. What could go wrong? It didn't take me long to realise if there was a first aid kit in the building, no one knew where it was, let alone where some 'plasters' would be (I confused everyone by asking for bandaids, until I realised that's very Australian of me, and changed my word use). I would find out the next day that while there was a first aid box... there was nothing in it. Pity that.
Next day, and I'm stuffed straight into the scrum. No matter that no paperwork or official 'you're employed now' stuff had taken place, I was being put to work!
Now... the thing about this pub, that some people love and some people (Mostly the front-of-house staff) hate is the fact that... well.... let me just show you and maybe you'll understand....
Bowties. Nowhere in my job description did it say that I was expected to wear a bowtie, and in hindsight, had I known ANYTHING important about this job, I wouldn't have accepted it. Also, when I took those photos, I'll have to note, I felt no inclination to smile for the photo, as I had just spent 40 pounds on the shirt, as M&S was the only shop in the town nearby- Dorking. FYI: 40 pounds equates to about $80).
(Side note: that desk with the towel on it was my 'ironing board', and to get power, I ended up letting the wall meet a screwdriver, and made a convenient hole in the wall that allowed me to feed the powercord for an extension lead (which of course I had to buy myself >.>) from the powerpoint in the hallway.)
Needless to say, I lasted a week. One week + 1 day. I fell in love with the locals (lovely people who were always willing to lend a hand, or an ear, or some advice) and the area (absolutely gorgeous, and I'm dissapointed I wasn't able to stay), but I knew if I stayed longer I would go insane slowly but surely- my poor friend had his phone going off all the time with my needy 'GOD I CANT DO THIS' over and over again, with some complaint about something. Patient guy that one. <3 He knows who he is. <3
Said friend also picked me up to take me home, back to my grandparents, and back to Stoke exactly 10 days after I had arrived. What a gem <3
In hindsight, and after being paid for my week of work, maybe I could have stuck it out a bit more, but to be honest, I could feel my mind already slipping away, so methinks I got out just in time.
EDIT: I have since found out that two of the chefs have left, and 5 of the staff have given notice that they're leaving to go to uni/college/school next month. I DEFINATELY got out just in time.
Anyways, that behind me, and back home and happy with my family, bowtie unhappy turns into this: my usual happy bouncy self :) (Along with stylish new coat- cause I came to England with no waterproof coats... lol).
This trip has made me learn A LOT about life and myself and people, and I copy here a facebook status I made at the start of the week- a moral booster of sorts at a moment I was feeling very, VERY dejected.
COPY FROM FACEBOOK:
I was talking to my dear Daddy after having some misgivings, and he said among lots of fatherly wisdom (if he doesn't mind me sharing a few of his words): 'We can bring you home but I think for the moment this experience will be priceless'.
It made me really think for a second, and I've decided that each week, I'm gonna share 5 things that I've learnt about life/myself/thoughts Probably more for my sake than yours, but why not I'm gonna do more than 5, to make up for the month I've been away now.
So... Things I've learnt about life/myself/others
1. I really, really REALLY need to work on my budgeting/money management skills.
2. Eating out one night each week, while amazingly awesome, does not help ones waistline.
3. I do not miss my university course/life/teachers at all. Not even slightly. While much more difficult to manage and rather inconvenient at times, I much prefer a tad more independence- and not being told what I HAVE to write is doing wonders for my creativeness. (I'm working on a short novel )
4. This sort of leads on from the last one- I like independence. While I've enjoyed a very sheltered, supported life with my parents, I can't do that for the rest of my life, and there's something refreshing and terrifying about being able to make my own decisions and not have to ask permission for everything. I like it.
5. On the other hand, I miss living at home and not having to make as many decisions! XD
6. I love, love, love, LOVE my family. Both my immediate and extended. It's that old 'you don't know what you got till its gone'. I miss my daddy and mummy and sister and brother more than I can explain, but at the same time...
7. Social media is totally underrated. The internet is a wonderful tool that I've only just realized is extremely useful in communicating. I mean, I always knew it, but its really sunk in now you know?
8. Mobile phone companies can suck it. (Pardon my rudeness lol). They charge way too much to stuff around with phones way too much to do something that is not really very good in the end anyways.
9. I really love pork scratchings. I just don't like the ones that still have hair on them. Ick. lol
10. Don't underestimate the usefulness of ones internet/online friends. Most, if not all from Britain from that awesome world of EVE Online have been incredibly helpful. And of course, don't trust them straight away all that stuff, and still be careful, but don't underestimate their awesomeness
11. Stand up for what you believe in, and understand that you don't have to settle for less. This one seems a little odd, but after the very crappy job I was given, and the need to get out of their, don't feel guilted into staying somewhere that makes you deeply unhappy. Just don't. Don't compromise on your standards.
12. Gratitude gratitude gratitude. I've had so much given to me in my life, and I'm grateful for every tiny bit of it. I just wish I'd been more thankful in moments where I could have shown it.
13. Hugs are totally underrated.
14. Surrey is an absolutely stunning area of England, and I will miss it for sure.
15. Honeybees are to be loved, hornets are to die horrible horrible deaths.
16. Driving in a pain in the ass and public transport in England is pretty damn convenient.
17. Home Bargains is the best shop in the history of ever.
18. It's okay to cry. Just use those tears to make yourself stronger, not weaker. Feel what you need to feel, then move on. This is still my greatest struggle, and always will be, but I'll get there.
So... I've probably forgotten a bunch, and its quite a varied mix, but there we are. heh. ^.^ Have fun with those.
A short and sweet list... sort of... but its all true, and its all stuff that I have learned from branching out into the big, bad world by myself for the first time. Some days I wonder, 'why the fuck did I move to the other side of the world to try this?' But I know, one day, I'm sure I'm going to look back on this and realise, it was totally worth it, whether I get a job or not.
To those who are my age, who haven't quite had the confidence to move out of their comfort zones yet- do it. It's highly scary, and hard and somewhat intimidating, and yes, you WILL make mistakes. But honestly, its worth every other moment of positiveness. Already I feel I am a stronger, more independant person, even when every other day I have a brief moment of sadness that my family is on the other side of the world (FYI: Homesickness is a bitch). For those of you who have done this before, and warned me it was going to be hard, you were right. This is hard. lol.
And for all you British friends.... anyone have any jobs available around Stoke on Trent? I'll work for minimum wage? XD haha.
Back to EVE for the closing moment, as I'm sure most of you were hoping happened a lot sooner, but to all the UK members out there.... get your ass to Nottingham on the 13th of September. :P I wanna meet as many of you nerds as I can while I'm here, and as I have booked my hotel already, I will most definately be making my presence known on the Friday (the 12th). If anyone else plans on going early, let me know and lets catch up! (Though I am intending to visit Nottingham Castle on arrival :P)
Let's bring the awesome weekend on! :D
Cheers guys! :) And hopefully I can talk your ear off more often now :P
P.S. If anyone actually just read all that..... you're a champion and deserve a medal. XD
(A picture my mum sent me at a time I was feeling particularly down, and is now my wallpaper)
Wednesday, April 23, 2014
So.. I'm Alive.. and MOVING!
So.... Hi.
I'm still alive :P
And.... guess what?
I'm MOVING! By myself... across the world... to work... in THE UNITED KINGDOM! Most likely Southern England somewhere. YAY! Closer to the sever!!! xD And for AT LEAST 4 months (but I'm not sure EXACTLY how long...)
I enter the country on the 24th of June in Manchester, and will probably chill with my family for a bit, then settle down wherever I get work (most of the jobs are in and around London).
Oh... and I'll be working in a pub :P Hehe.
I'm planning on going to Nashh's VETO meet on September 13th in Nottingham (I'd dead set on making it :P), so any of you who wanna meet me should totally show up and x up here: https://forums.eveonline.com/default.aspx?g=posts&t=336343 :P I'd like to meet people who read my crap XD haha.
Either way, hopefully I'm gonna be able to meet and talk to more of you and get a active in the community as I can. :D
Can't wait! I'm nervoucited :P (nervous/excited) :P
BRING ON THE WORLD!!!
P.S. Will actually write about EVE pretty soon... XD Eventually. When I get on top of my uni assignments :P
I'm still alive :P
And.... guess what?
I'm MOVING! By myself... across the world... to work... in THE UNITED KINGDOM! Most likely Southern England somewhere. YAY! Closer to the sever!!! xD And for AT LEAST 4 months (but I'm not sure EXACTLY how long...)
I enter the country on the 24th of June in Manchester, and will probably chill with my family for a bit, then settle down wherever I get work (most of the jobs are in and around London).
Oh... and I'll be working in a pub :P Hehe.
I'm planning on going to Nashh's VETO meet on September 13th in Nottingham (I'd dead set on making it :P), so any of you who wanna meet me should totally show up and x up here: https://forums.eveonline.com/default.aspx?g=posts&t=336343 :P I'd like to meet people who read my crap XD haha.
Either way, hopefully I'm gonna be able to meet and talk to more of you and get a active in the community as I can. :D
Can't wait! I'm nervoucited :P (nervous/excited) :P
BRING ON THE WORLD!!!
P.S. Will actually write about EVE pretty soon... XD Eventually. When I get on top of my uni assignments :P
Friday, March 14, 2014
My Time Capsule Message :)
Here is what I submitted for the possible viewing of future EVE players. :) (And yes, most of mine is a very... condensed blog post. But whatever :P)
"Congratulations on remembering how to work a laptop! :P
Hi future EVE players! I am Jessi, otherwise known as Naughty Cargo, and I have a blog. Here, is my message and story to you.
EVE now: We saw, just last month, the biggest battle in EVE history (so far). B-R5. If you guys don't know what that is, we failed our generations to come. Plex is currently at 670ISK in outlying regions, which is crazy astronomical prices, and they are only going up. The second New Eden Open is currently underway (we find out tomorrow who wins).
Also, if people are not talking like this about fitting up ships...
Diziet Thomas > 2 lse 2 invul med cap booster mwd nos 3 med nuets sm nuet cdfe egress port rcu pd
...you're doing it wrong.
May EVE always be a place full of acronyms that nobody understands.
Anyways… here we go :)
In EVE, all that's relevant... is whatever happens in EVE.
It seems such a simple concept, and one that makes sense if you look at it and take it as face value. However, add the social element, the part I really love of this game, and suddenly, there's lots of grey areas.
I sit in comms, yes with the name 'Naughty Cargo', but I am me- I am Jess. I am sitting on comms as the 21 year old from Australia, not the dastardly, ruthless space pirate. But I am 'Naughty' and am referred to as such- NC, Cargo. whatever anyone uses, they are addressing me as the in-game pirate.
I am a good person. I don't go out into the street and shoot people in the face. I don't steal people's cars and crash them into a wall. Naughty Cargo, that bad space pirate, goes into space and shoots people in the face. She steals people's ships, and then destroys them in some sort of glorious battle. Naughty Cargo bumps people off gates and shoot them just for being in the wrong place at the wrong time. Naughty Cargo is part of a big, bad, blobby alliance.
Sitting in comms as me only does so much good when Naughty's alliance is causing trouble with the people that I am sitting with.
Listening to a fleet get blobbed by my alliance while I was sitting on their comms, 10 minutes after I logged in- I froze. What do you do when suddenly, the thing you have been teased about, the thing that was joked about- being a 'spai'- becomes a crazy possibility in reality? Do I stay, do I go? Do I laugh, do I cry, do I rage? Do I just go with it and act like nothing happened? I choked, mumbled a bit, and left.
I tried to ignore the sudden rift in the line I had been walking- the line I didn't even realise I was walking on until I crossed it. The line between EVE the game, and Jessi's real life- my 'friendships' with other real people, not the characters they play in game.
The two aspects of me don't work together anymore. In game and out of game don't align.
And you know what? I don't think I can ever go back. Now that line has been crossed, I can't ever rebuild whatever I had going in the first place.
I now have an alliance name of which I am part that labels me as a certain way. And you know what, I like them. Yes, I'm still not everyone's cup of tea, and never will be. But for now, Shadow Cartel is Naughty Cargo's home.
Jessi's family, are those people who I care for, in and out of game, those that I see as friends, who I feel I know maybe better than others, or vice versa. I will ALWAYS care for my EVE family- for the people behind the characters. Like any family, we have our disputes, we have arguments and fights, we have people that don't ever get along.
I am not a bad person. I am not a liar. I am not a 'spai'. I know that, and in the end, it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks- or says. I am who I am, I know who I am, and I know what I do.
In EVE, all that's relevant... is whatever happens IN EVE.
I'm going to adopt this rule. It's going to be in my bio, right at the top.
I am Naughty Cargo AND I am Jessica Joy Owen. I am a member of Shadow Cartel, and I am a member of the Molden Heath community. I am an ex black jacket, and I am a space pirate.”
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“The risk of having your day ruined by other people is the cornerstone with which EVE was built" -CCP Solomon. If you're playing eve in 25 years and they've gone Pandas, remind them why Eve was once great.
-The dude who gave her the plex to submit this message.
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An additional message from a friend-
A wise fleet commander once told me: "Intel is what makes an alliance great." I was freshly hired to the job of so-called "Royal Spymaster". My credentials? Six months playing EVE.
EVE is unusual. It is a persistent MMO world in which players can bring in relevant "real life" skills and that gives them an edge of a kind over other players. But what makes it truly unique is that the world promotes innovation, adaptation and a state of paranoia found nowhere else.
'Only the unknown frightens man. Once a man has faced the unknown, that terror becomes the known.'
I imagine twenty five years after I have written this message, the situation will be no different; irrespective of whether battles continue to be fought in New Eden. Define the undefined and challenge that infinite to become finite.
EVE is a journey of mastery pitted against Fortuna.
- Ezek Price
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And, to finish... "FLY DRUNK, FLY RIFTERS!" :P
(We'll see how it goes down. XD)
"Congratulations on remembering how to work a laptop! :P
Hi future EVE players! I am Jessi, otherwise known as Naughty Cargo, and I have a blog. Here, is my message and story to you.
EVE now: We saw, just last month, the biggest battle in EVE history (so far). B-R5. If you guys don't know what that is, we failed our generations to come. Plex is currently at 670ISK in outlying regions, which is crazy astronomical prices, and they are only going up. The second New Eden Open is currently underway (we find out tomorrow who wins).
Also, if people are not talking like this about fitting up ships...
Diziet Thomas > 2 lse 2 invul med cap booster mwd nos 3 med nuets sm nuet cdfe egress port rcu pd
...you're doing it wrong.
May EVE always be a place full of acronyms that nobody understands.
Anyways… here we go :)
In EVE, all that's relevant... is whatever happens in EVE.
It seems such a simple concept, and one that makes sense if you look at it and take it as face value. However, add the social element, the part I really love of this game, and suddenly, there's lots of grey areas.
I sit in comms, yes with the name 'Naughty Cargo', but I am me- I am Jess. I am sitting on comms as the 21 year old from Australia, not the dastardly, ruthless space pirate. But I am 'Naughty' and am referred to as such- NC, Cargo. whatever anyone uses, they are addressing me as the in-game pirate.
I am a good person. I don't go out into the street and shoot people in the face. I don't steal people's cars and crash them into a wall. Naughty Cargo, that bad space pirate, goes into space and shoots people in the face. She steals people's ships, and then destroys them in some sort of glorious battle. Naughty Cargo bumps people off gates and shoot them just for being in the wrong place at the wrong time. Naughty Cargo is part of a big, bad, blobby alliance.
Sitting in comms as me only does so much good when Naughty's alliance is causing trouble with the people that I am sitting with.
Listening to a fleet get blobbed by my alliance while I was sitting on their comms, 10 minutes after I logged in- I froze. What do you do when suddenly, the thing you have been teased about, the thing that was joked about- being a 'spai'- becomes a crazy possibility in reality? Do I stay, do I go? Do I laugh, do I cry, do I rage? Do I just go with it and act like nothing happened? I choked, mumbled a bit, and left.
I tried to ignore the sudden rift in the line I had been walking- the line I didn't even realise I was walking on until I crossed it. The line between EVE the game, and Jessi's real life- my 'friendships' with other real people, not the characters they play in game.
The two aspects of me don't work together anymore. In game and out of game don't align.
And you know what? I don't think I can ever go back. Now that line has been crossed, I can't ever rebuild whatever I had going in the first place.
I now have an alliance name of which I am part that labels me as a certain way. And you know what, I like them. Yes, I'm still not everyone's cup of tea, and never will be. But for now, Shadow Cartel is Naughty Cargo's home.
Jessi's family, are those people who I care for, in and out of game, those that I see as friends, who I feel I know maybe better than others, or vice versa. I will ALWAYS care for my EVE family- for the people behind the characters. Like any family, we have our disputes, we have arguments and fights, we have people that don't ever get along.
I am not a bad person. I am not a liar. I am not a 'spai'. I know that, and in the end, it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks- or says. I am who I am, I know who I am, and I know what I do.
In EVE, all that's relevant... is whatever happens IN EVE.
I'm going to adopt this rule. It's going to be in my bio, right at the top.
I am Naughty Cargo AND I am Jessica Joy Owen. I am a member of Shadow Cartel, and I am a member of the Molden Heath community. I am an ex black jacket, and I am a space pirate.”
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“The risk of having your day ruined by other people is the cornerstone with which EVE was built" -CCP Solomon. If you're playing eve in 25 years and they've gone Pandas, remind them why Eve was once great.
-The dude who gave her the plex to submit this message.
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An additional message from a friend-
A wise fleet commander once told me: "Intel is what makes an alliance great." I was freshly hired to the job of so-called "Royal Spymaster". My credentials? Six months playing EVE.
EVE is unusual. It is a persistent MMO world in which players can bring in relevant "real life" skills and that gives them an edge of a kind over other players. But what makes it truly unique is that the world promotes innovation, adaptation and a state of paranoia found nowhere else.
'Only the unknown frightens man. Once a man has faced the unknown, that terror becomes the known.'
I imagine twenty five years after I have written this message, the situation will be no different; irrespective of whether battles continue to be fought in New Eden. Define the undefined and challenge that infinite to become finite.
EVE is a journey of mastery pitted against Fortuna.
- Ezek Price
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And, to finish... "FLY DRUNK, FLY RIFTERS!" :P
(We'll see how it goes down. XD)
Saturday, February 22, 2014
In Game... Out of Game...
(Authors note: I do not see myself as two people. Naughty Cargo and Jessi are just ways of illustrating in-game me and out-of-game me. I'm crazy, sure, but not that much. Yet :P)
I was having a discussion with brandobas tonight (<3 brando), and he said something that really made me think- as lots of things do, relating to this game.
We were talking about all the events that have transpired basically since I sent my app in to 7-2, up to now, particularly the recent circumstances with my new alliance and the (somewhat) unfortunate events that have transpired from them. We kept talking, about the alliance as a whole, that is, Shadow Cartel and who they are; who they are viewed to be.
What made me think specifically was when I said 'they're not all bad (as people), most of them are good, if not occasionally annoying' (:P love you guys hehe), and Brando came back with something about how, no matter who they are out of game, makes absolutely no difference in game. You're not going to NOT shoot someone in an opposing fleet JUST because they're a nice person in real life.
In EVE, all that's relevant... is whatever happens in EVE.
It seems such a simple concept, and one that makes sense if you look at it and take it as face value. However, add the social element, the part I really love of this game, and suddenly, there's lots of grey areas. We all sit on comms as our CHARACTER names, we interact on forums with API's tied into the game- no custom avatars or up-loadable pictures, we use our character portraits instead. Corp TICKERS and signs and logos are everywhere.
I sit in comms, yes with the name 'Naughty Cargo', but I am me- I am Jess. I am sitting on comms as the 21 year old from Australia, not the dastardly, ruthless space pirate. But I am 'Naughty' and am referred to as such- NC, Cargo... whatever anyone uses, they are addressing me as the in-game pirate. My TICKER is right there next to my name [AU-NZ], a clear indicator of Naughty's stance on things. And, and probably the most important point, not everyone sees this game like I do. Some people don't care for the out of game people. Some, not even the ones in their own corp. Others, ONLY the people they have in their corp matter and no one else.
I am a nice person. I am a good person. I often get told that I'm not, and sometimes, I find it hard to remember I am actually a positive on life, not a negative. I don't go out into the street and shoot people in the face. I don't steal people's cars and crash them into a wall. I don't bump people out of the way on the street. Naughty Cargo, that bad space pirate, goes into space and shoots people in the face. She steals people's ships, and then destroys them in some sort of glorious battle. Naughty Cargo bumps people off gates and shoot them just for being in the wrong place at the wrong time. Naughty Cargo is part of a big, bad, blobby alliance, and therefore... must be like such an entity, as much to be a part of.
Sitting in comms as Jessi, sitting in forums and chats as Jessi... only does so much good when Naughty's alliance is causing trouble with the people that Jessi is sitting with. To the point that 'I MUST have had a part in it, because its far too convenient to be a coincidence'. And you know what, I don't help myself about it either. What do you say when something happens you had absolutely no control over and suddenly, everyone is looking at you, interrogating you as to why you just did 'that', whatever that is? What do you say?
Listening to a 7-2 fleet get blobbed while I was sitting on their comms, 10 minutes after I logged in... I froze. I hadn't bothered to log into SC comms, because they were flying something I couldn't. I decided to ignore it, being in a good mood, and hopped on 7-2 comms instead, as I was wont to do when feeling chatty. 10 minutes in, and my brain froze. What do you do when suddenly, the thing you have been teased about, the thing that was joked about- being a 'spai'- becomes a crazy possibility in reality? I didn't help myself freaking out. Do I stay, do I go? Do I laugh, do I cry, do I rage? Do I just go with it and act like nothing happened? I choked, mumbled a bit, and left.
I didn't think about it again, until I got a few comments thrown at me the next day in a chat I had always sat in. And they were no longer joking. No longer laughing, or being silly. It escalated, got rather nasty, before we moved on, me trying to ignore the sudden rift in the line I had been walking- the line I didn't even realise I was walking on until I crossed it. The line between EVE the game, and Jessi's real life- my 'friendships' with other real people, not the characters they play in game.
The two aspects of me don't work together anymore. In game and out of game don't align. Yes I can post random stuff on the forums, share internet goodness, talk on posts and in chats... but I can't just 'hang out' on comms like I used to. I can't ask random questions like 'Oh, where are you guys at?', stuff I asked before PURELY because I was curious and wanted to know if I could catch up. I can't ask 'Oh, what are you flying?' I can't just sit in while a fleet is going on and listen. We saw where THAT got me... lol.
And you know what? I don't think I can ever go back. Now that line has been crossed, I can't ever rebuild whatever random line I had going in the first place.
I am under no illusions. I am not getting into 7-2. Ever.
I am not like most of the people in the corp, if any. I am not 'close' so to speak with many of the members, and you know what? I know I annoy people. I acknowledge bouncy, young, loud, happy, irrelevant Jessi is not everyone's cup of tea. Particular those who make the decisions. And its not because they are bad people, nor me. It just means we wouldn't ever hang out- would never be compatible in this game. We play completely different types of games.
And THAT is what matters- not the people, not the personalities (though they are important), but the type of game that is played. The game within the game. The game of alliances and corps and blues and fleets and fights. The fights we all enjoy and crave and love and thrive on.
I now have an alliance name of which I am part, that labels me as a certain way. And you know what, I like them. Most, if not all, are people I get along with. Yes, I'm still not everyone's cup of tea, and never will be. But overall, its very nice. Chilling just sitting in comms or chatting in chat channels... talking on the forums. For now, Shadow Cartel is Naughty Cargo's home, Naughty Cargo's family.
Jessi's family, are those people who I care for, in and out of game, those that I see as friends, who I feel I know maybe better than others, or vice versa. I will ALWAYS care for my Molden Heath family- for the people behind the characters. Like any family, we have our disputes, we have arguments and fights, we have people that don't ever get along or don't like other people. People we don't know as well as others cause they're always away, etc. But think back to my Christmas video- my present to those who I care about. THAT was Jessi, that was not Naughty Cargo.
I am not a bad person. I am not a liar. I am not a 'spai'. No matter what people think or say, me, Jess, as a person, am not a blobby spai. I know that, and in the end, it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks- or says. I am who I am, I know who I am, and I know what I do.
In EVE, all that's relevant... is whatever happens IN EVE.
I'm going to adopt this rule. It's going to be in my bio, right at the top.
I am Naughty Cargo AND I am Jessica Joy Owen. I am a member of Shadow Cartel, and I am a member of the Molden Heath community. I am an ex black jacket, and I am a space pirate.
And much love to all the people behind these EVE characters, all those corps and alliances and organisations- R1DER, ThC, 7-2, Shadow Cartel, etc. No matter what happens in EVE, I have myself, and I have you guys, and that is awesome. Mostly :P When you're all not being dicks ;) :P hehe.
I was having a discussion with brandobas tonight (<3 brando), and he said something that really made me think- as lots of things do, relating to this game.
We were talking about all the events that have transpired basically since I sent my app in to 7-2, up to now, particularly the recent circumstances with my new alliance and the (somewhat) unfortunate events that have transpired from them. We kept talking, about the alliance as a whole, that is, Shadow Cartel and who they are; who they are viewed to be.
What made me think specifically was when I said 'they're not all bad (as people), most of them are good, if not occasionally annoying' (:P love you guys hehe), and Brando came back with something about how, no matter who they are out of game, makes absolutely no difference in game. You're not going to NOT shoot someone in an opposing fleet JUST because they're a nice person in real life.
In EVE, all that's relevant... is whatever happens in EVE.
It seems such a simple concept, and one that makes sense if you look at it and take it as face value. However, add the social element, the part I really love of this game, and suddenly, there's lots of grey areas. We all sit on comms as our CHARACTER names, we interact on forums with API's tied into the game- no custom avatars or up-loadable pictures, we use our character portraits instead. Corp TICKERS and signs and logos are everywhere.
I sit in comms, yes with the name 'Naughty Cargo', but I am me- I am Jess. I am sitting on comms as the 21 year old from Australia, not the dastardly, ruthless space pirate. But I am 'Naughty' and am referred to as such- NC, Cargo... whatever anyone uses, they are addressing me as the in-game pirate. My TICKER is right there next to my name [AU-NZ], a clear indicator of Naughty's stance on things. And, and probably the most important point, not everyone sees this game like I do. Some people don't care for the out of game people. Some, not even the ones in their own corp. Others, ONLY the people they have in their corp matter and no one else.
I am a nice person. I am a good person. I often get told that I'm not, and sometimes, I find it hard to remember I am actually a positive on life, not a negative. I don't go out into the street and shoot people in the face. I don't steal people's cars and crash them into a wall. I don't bump people out of the way on the street. Naughty Cargo, that bad space pirate, goes into space and shoots people in the face. She steals people's ships, and then destroys them in some sort of glorious battle. Naughty Cargo bumps people off gates and shoot them just for being in the wrong place at the wrong time. Naughty Cargo is part of a big, bad, blobby alliance, and therefore... must be like such an entity, as much to be a part of.
Sitting in comms as Jessi, sitting in forums and chats as Jessi... only does so much good when Naughty's alliance is causing trouble with the people that Jessi is sitting with. To the point that 'I MUST have had a part in it, because its far too convenient to be a coincidence'. And you know what, I don't help myself about it either. What do you say when something happens you had absolutely no control over and suddenly, everyone is looking at you, interrogating you as to why you just did 'that', whatever that is? What do you say?
Listening to a 7-2 fleet get blobbed while I was sitting on their comms, 10 minutes after I logged in... I froze. I hadn't bothered to log into SC comms, because they were flying something I couldn't. I decided to ignore it, being in a good mood, and hopped on 7-2 comms instead, as I was wont to do when feeling chatty. 10 minutes in, and my brain froze. What do you do when suddenly, the thing you have been teased about, the thing that was joked about- being a 'spai'- becomes a crazy possibility in reality? I didn't help myself freaking out. Do I stay, do I go? Do I laugh, do I cry, do I rage? Do I just go with it and act like nothing happened? I choked, mumbled a bit, and left.
I didn't think about it again, until I got a few comments thrown at me the next day in a chat I had always sat in. And they were no longer joking. No longer laughing, or being silly. It escalated, got rather nasty, before we moved on, me trying to ignore the sudden rift in the line I had been walking- the line I didn't even realise I was walking on until I crossed it. The line between EVE the game, and Jessi's real life- my 'friendships' with other real people, not the characters they play in game.
The two aspects of me don't work together anymore. In game and out of game don't align. Yes I can post random stuff on the forums, share internet goodness, talk on posts and in chats... but I can't just 'hang out' on comms like I used to. I can't ask random questions like 'Oh, where are you guys at?', stuff I asked before PURELY because I was curious and wanted to know if I could catch up. I can't ask 'Oh, what are you flying?' I can't just sit in while a fleet is going on and listen. We saw where THAT got me... lol.
And you know what? I don't think I can ever go back. Now that line has been crossed, I can't ever rebuild whatever random line I had going in the first place.
I am under no illusions. I am not getting into 7-2. Ever.
I am not like most of the people in the corp, if any. I am not 'close' so to speak with many of the members, and you know what? I know I annoy people. I acknowledge bouncy, young, loud, happy, irrelevant Jessi is not everyone's cup of tea. Particular those who make the decisions. And its not because they are bad people, nor me. It just means we wouldn't ever hang out- would never be compatible in this game. We play completely different types of games.
And THAT is what matters- not the people, not the personalities (though they are important), but the type of game that is played. The game within the game. The game of alliances and corps and blues and fleets and fights. The fights we all enjoy and crave and love and thrive on.
I now have an alliance name of which I am part, that labels me as a certain way. And you know what, I like them. Most, if not all, are people I get along with. Yes, I'm still not everyone's cup of tea, and never will be. But overall, its very nice. Chilling just sitting in comms or chatting in chat channels... talking on the forums. For now, Shadow Cartel is Naughty Cargo's home, Naughty Cargo's family.
Jessi's family, are those people who I care for, in and out of game, those that I see as friends, who I feel I know maybe better than others, or vice versa. I will ALWAYS care for my Molden Heath family- for the people behind the characters. Like any family, we have our disputes, we have arguments and fights, we have people that don't ever get along or don't like other people. People we don't know as well as others cause they're always away, etc. But think back to my Christmas video- my present to those who I care about. THAT was Jessi, that was not Naughty Cargo.
I am not a bad person. I am not a liar. I am not a 'spai'. No matter what people think or say, me, Jess, as a person, am not a blobby spai. I know that, and in the end, it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks- or says. I am who I am, I know who I am, and I know what I do.
In EVE, all that's relevant... is whatever happens IN EVE.
I'm going to adopt this rule. It's going to be in my bio, right at the top.
I am Naughty Cargo AND I am Jessica Joy Owen. I am a member of Shadow Cartel, and I am a member of the Molden Heath community. I am an ex black jacket, and I am a space pirate.
And much love to all the people behind these EVE characters, all those corps and alliances and organisations- R1DER, ThC, 7-2, Shadow Cartel, etc. No matter what happens in EVE, I have myself, and I have you guys, and that is awesome. Mostly :P When you're all not being dicks ;) :P hehe.
Monday, February 17, 2014
EVE- A Game Like No Other
(This has been written after about 2 weeks, so when I say earlier this week, its not true. XD Just go with it. haha)
I know I sorta did a post on this before, more specifically about the community, but I had an experience earlier this week, combined with CCP's newest announcement, that made me think about this game in a somewhat objective way- what makes it amazing? Why do I seem to not be able to pull myself away from New Eden? And why are so many people asking me about this game because a whole bunch of random players lost $300,000 worth of game content?
We had an AU timezone fleet earlier this week. Ohm's just pulled it together out of the hat, and we grabbed whatever we had, basically, a bunch of Aussies from various corps, and we flew out, heading towards Tama. I was in my trusty jag, because you know.. tackle is always handy. We'd shot at a few things here and there, and had one really good, totally random fight which led to the death of a few random ships (http://shadowcartel.com/kb/?a=kill_related&kll_id=93211 - although I coulda sworn we killed more things than that...)
Anyways, so we were going along, when we docked up for a dinner/food break. A few of the guys kept scouting/looking around, and one of them spotted a Thanny sitting in space one system over. I can't remember what it was doing, but it was russian, so who knows. One of the guys kept an eye on it until everyone had come back, and in the meantime, we talked about the plan. With me being tackle in my jag, I was nominated at the tackle. Strict orders- stay at about 20km, keep moving so you don't get caught by drones, and just hold point. By the time all the people had returned, I had that feeling in my stomach- the butterflies.
I, as a fairly new player still, get the butterflies and 'shakes' when I'm in or about to enter a really good fight. And while so many things still scare me in this game, there's one thing I don't mind, and that's the shakes themselves. I have never, EVER found a game that gives me as much of an adrenalin rush as EVE provides. It both amps me up, and terrifies me, and I love it. LOVE IT LOVE IT! It makes me want to kill more stuff.
Anyways, I could literally feel my mouse shaking as the call was made for me to jump, the fleet on the gate, in warp to Thanny. No pressure. Unfortunately, the warp was a long one, 50+ AU, and the lucky bastard was aligned and warping as I landed. *sadface*. Problem is, that adrenalin rush was still there!!! We didn't end up killing anything else on the way home, but did end up getting a few nice kills at the usual gate camp :P
What made me think of sharing this was the adrenalin rush. Those butterflies that I was feeling, are just overwhelming. There is no game like this. This is more apparent in the individual feelings and experiences this game creates. The publicity that has gone around, simply the amount of people checking out this game... its amazing! And everyone has their own way of doing it. So many different people and play styles, and all in one server. ONE SERVER! xD How many MMO's do that?
And how many MMO's have a sculpture in real life that their main characters name is going to be on? CCP announced the building of a big statue around the bay in Reykavik, for ANYONE to see, with all the main characters in EVE on it that are active as on March 1st. That's a lot of characters! XD But its gonna be there.
There's just so many things that make this game different and great, and I hope I am playing it still, for years to come. I want to be a bitter 'not-so-bitter' vet :P XD
I know I sorta did a post on this before, more specifically about the community, but I had an experience earlier this week, combined with CCP's newest announcement, that made me think about this game in a somewhat objective way- what makes it amazing? Why do I seem to not be able to pull myself away from New Eden? And why are so many people asking me about this game because a whole bunch of random players lost $300,000 worth of game content?
We had an AU timezone fleet earlier this week. Ohm's just pulled it together out of the hat, and we grabbed whatever we had, basically, a bunch of Aussies from various corps, and we flew out, heading towards Tama. I was in my trusty jag, because you know.. tackle is always handy. We'd shot at a few things here and there, and had one really good, totally random fight which led to the death of a few random ships (http://shadowcartel.com/kb/?a=kill_related&kll_id=93211 - although I coulda sworn we killed more things than that...)
Anyways, so we were going along, when we docked up for a dinner/food break. A few of the guys kept scouting/looking around, and one of them spotted a Thanny sitting in space one system over. I can't remember what it was doing, but it was russian, so who knows. One of the guys kept an eye on it until everyone had come back, and in the meantime, we talked about the plan. With me being tackle in my jag, I was nominated at the tackle. Strict orders- stay at about 20km, keep moving so you don't get caught by drones, and just hold point. By the time all the people had returned, I had that feeling in my stomach- the butterflies.
I, as a fairly new player still, get the butterflies and 'shakes' when I'm in or about to enter a really good fight. And while so many things still scare me in this game, there's one thing I don't mind, and that's the shakes themselves. I have never, EVER found a game that gives me as much of an adrenalin rush as EVE provides. It both amps me up, and terrifies me, and I love it. LOVE IT LOVE IT! It makes me want to kill more stuff.
Anyways, I could literally feel my mouse shaking as the call was made for me to jump, the fleet on the gate, in warp to Thanny. No pressure. Unfortunately, the warp was a long one, 50+ AU, and the lucky bastard was aligned and warping as I landed. *sadface*. Problem is, that adrenalin rush was still there!!! We didn't end up killing anything else on the way home, but did end up getting a few nice kills at the usual gate camp :P
What made me think of sharing this was the adrenalin rush. Those butterflies that I was feeling, are just overwhelming. There is no game like this. This is more apparent in the individual feelings and experiences this game creates. The publicity that has gone around, simply the amount of people checking out this game... its amazing! And everyone has their own way of doing it. So many different people and play styles, and all in one server. ONE SERVER! xD How many MMO's do that?
And how many MMO's have a sculpture in real life that their main characters name is going to be on? CCP announced the building of a big statue around the bay in Reykavik, for ANYONE to see, with all the main characters in EVE on it that are active as on March 1st. That's a lot of characters! XD But its gonna be there.
There's just so many things that make this game different and great, and I hope I am playing it still, for years to come. I want to be a bitter 'not-so-bitter' vet :P XD
Thursday, February 13, 2014
Naughty Cargo- The Stats So Far!
So, I was sitting on comms, listening to some of the 7-2 boys relating to the rest of the group their various statistics of all time. Like, ship most used, corp most had kills in, etc... (that's a really awkward way of typing that, but I can't really think of a better one XD).
Anyways, so me being the intrepid sheep that I am, decided to follow suit, log on to zKillboard and look at my probably botched stats.
(Take note of my random bookmarks toolbar. XD A side note: every morning when I get up, I make my way across that bar in a quick fashion, checking each one very quickly, before shutting it again and getting the day started.)
Anyways, as you can see here, zKillboard tells me I have 649 kills. Hmmm... I don't know. I'm sure I should have more, but I don't know. Maybe I am overestimating my killing skills. Haha. Also, I like the idea of only having lost 190 ships, but again, not sure if that's accurate. Let's go with it! XD I don't know what being ranked 7,492 means, but its under 10,000, so I'll be right. haha.
What I really love, and what really shows where I belong, is my top corps. As you can see, my top corp was my dear family, The Humbleless Crew. Led in part by the awesome Diziet Thomas and comprising of the strangest, and sometimes angriest (ren), but sweetest people in the whole of New Eden. I started out in R1FTA, but these guys have really taught me more in the grand scheme of things, though I will always hold a special place in my heart for R1FTA, don't get me wrong! And, as is clearly shown here, they easily make up AT LEAST half of my total kills. Will always love these guys. <3
That stat makes me very happy either way. I'd love if we could go back to the days that we had awesome fleets and it was all a tad more relaxed and things, but I know the guys are happy with 7-2, and I know that one day... in like, 2 years XD I'll be enjoying my time with them too. Until then, I am finding Shadow very, very cool. A great learning experience with great people. :)
I also find it very interesting that I became part of ThC JUST before they left Capital Punishment. 3 kills while we were still under their reign. Very interesting happenstance ^.^
And now, for the MORE interesting bit! :D
I am rather proud of the fact that my top ship is the Jag. My beautiful, beautiful jag. Also the fact that out of the weapons that AREN'T ships, my top is a long point- because I'm an awesome tackle. :P I find it interesting my second is a Thrasher though. I'm thinking I might have ganked a little too often in the early R1DER days. ;) I'm such a tackle, with Letto as 4th. I really do wanna try something else, but this really shows my love of the pointing. ^.^
I also find amusing my top systems. Bosena has been my home since R1FTER, and it shows. I'm quite proud of what I have achieved in my awesome Molden Heath. ^.^ Look at all those MH systems. So happy! :D Funny that Jov is second though. I think the R1FTER guys and my corp are rubbing off on me with the Essence. XD Also Teo as 4- back to that ganking again. XD At least I can pronounce all these systems.
I still think some things are missing in all of these stats, but I'm not too fussed. Is fun to look at either way. Let's see if over the next few months things change. In about an hour I can fly Gallante Battleships- well... sit in them anyway. About 2 weeks after that and I can fly a good fit on one. I'm 12 days off using a fairly decent Min Heavy Assault Cruiser, and I'm working on my gunnery skills pretty heavily atm. My fitting skills need a tad more work, but hey, it all comes with time. Time time time. :)
On a side note, I'm poor. :P Its a strange alliance to be in, when you're poor, but whatevs. Snow showed me an asset tool last night, and I made an API, and plugged in my details. Here's the result....
Anyone want an Odin Synthetic Eye is worst comes to worst? XD I think I might keep it though unless I'm really desperate, cause Lho gave it to me for Christmas :) Ish special. ^.^ Either way, gonna start working on ISK gain. Who knows how it'll go....?
There's my EVE post for now. My parents get back from the other side of the country tonight, so I get to be less busy. Keeping ones siblings alive takes work! Particularly when they eat so much crap! In any case, I've survived the week, so we'll see. :P Uni starts on the 10th of March, so after that, I'll try and post when I can- not that I'm the most reliable either way! XD hahaha I have a few posts in draft, so incoming! XD I went to B-R5 last night in a shuttle. :P Got all the way, despite the naysayers, but whatevers. XD I had fun XD Blog post in progress!
Check out the post before this for a little funny. ;)
Anyways, so me being the intrepid sheep that I am, decided to follow suit, log on to zKillboard and look at my probably botched stats.
(Take note of my random bookmarks toolbar. XD A side note: every morning when I get up, I make my way across that bar in a quick fashion, checking each one very quickly, before shutting it again and getting the day started.)
Anyways, as you can see here, zKillboard tells me I have 649 kills. Hmmm... I don't know. I'm sure I should have more, but I don't know. Maybe I am overestimating my killing skills. Haha. Also, I like the idea of only having lost 190 ships, but again, not sure if that's accurate. Let's go with it! XD I don't know what being ranked 7,492 means, but its under 10,000, so I'll be right. haha.
What I really love, and what really shows where I belong, is my top corps. As you can see, my top corp was my dear family, The Humbleless Crew. Led in part by the awesome Diziet Thomas and comprising of the strangest, and sometimes angriest (ren), but sweetest people in the whole of New Eden. I started out in R1FTA, but these guys have really taught me more in the grand scheme of things, though I will always hold a special place in my heart for R1FTA, don't get me wrong! And, as is clearly shown here, they easily make up AT LEAST half of my total kills. Will always love these guys. <3
That stat makes me very happy either way. I'd love if we could go back to the days that we had awesome fleets and it was all a tad more relaxed and things, but I know the guys are happy with 7-2, and I know that one day... in like, 2 years XD I'll be enjoying my time with them too. Until then, I am finding Shadow very, very cool. A great learning experience with great people. :)
I also find it very interesting that I became part of ThC JUST before they left Capital Punishment. 3 kills while we were still under their reign. Very interesting happenstance ^.^
And now, for the MORE interesting bit! :D
I am rather proud of the fact that my top ship is the Jag. My beautiful, beautiful jag. Also the fact that out of the weapons that AREN'T ships, my top is a long point- because I'm an awesome tackle. :P I find it interesting my second is a Thrasher though. I'm thinking I might have ganked a little too often in the early R1DER days. ;) I'm such a tackle, with Letto as 4th. I really do wanna try something else, but this really shows my love of the pointing. ^.^
I also find amusing my top systems. Bosena has been my home since R1FTER, and it shows. I'm quite proud of what I have achieved in my awesome Molden Heath. ^.^ Look at all those MH systems. So happy! :D Funny that Jov is second though. I think the R1FTER guys and my corp are rubbing off on me with the Essence. XD Also Teo as 4- back to that ganking again. XD At least I can pronounce all these systems.
I still think some things are missing in all of these stats, but I'm not too fussed. Is fun to look at either way. Let's see if over the next few months things change. In about an hour I can fly Gallante Battleships- well... sit in them anyway. About 2 weeks after that and I can fly a good fit on one. I'm 12 days off using a fairly decent Min Heavy Assault Cruiser, and I'm working on my gunnery skills pretty heavily atm. My fitting skills need a tad more work, but hey, it all comes with time. Time time time. :)
On a side note, I'm poor. :P Its a strange alliance to be in, when you're poor, but whatevs. Snow showed me an asset tool last night, and I made an API, and plugged in my details. Here's the result....
Anyone want an Odin Synthetic Eye is worst comes to worst? XD I think I might keep it though unless I'm really desperate, cause Lho gave it to me for Christmas :) Ish special. ^.^ Either way, gonna start working on ISK gain. Who knows how it'll go....?
There's my EVE post for now. My parents get back from the other side of the country tonight, so I get to be less busy. Keeping ones siblings alive takes work! Particularly when they eat so much crap! In any case, I've survived the week, so we'll see. :P Uni starts on the 10th of March, so after that, I'll try and post when I can- not that I'm the most reliable either way! XD hahaha I have a few posts in draft, so incoming! XD I went to B-R5 last night in a shuttle. :P Got all the way, despite the naysayers, but whatevers. XD I had fun XD Blog post in progress!
Check out the post before this for a little funny. ;)
HAHAHAHAHAHA Says something... :P
So.. quick note, because this amused me, and I was literally laughing myself to tears, but I hopped onto eBay out of boredom, and for curiosities sake, typed in EVE Online.
As you can see, all fairly boring... something bout plex, some stickers... scroll down...
People like this ISK making book thing. Might check it out if I'm ever interested in ISK making.. would be outdated though...
Keep scrolling...
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BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHHAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
'The Unspoken Rules of Online Dating for Men' AND (this is my favourite :P) 'Virtual Foreplay: Making Your Online Realationship in Real Life a Success'.
Followed by another ISK making book.
Co-incidence? I don't think so. :P If it is, I find it incredibly amusing. XD
As you can see, all fairly boring... something bout plex, some stickers... scroll down...
Keep scrolling...
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BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHHAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
'The Unspoken Rules of Online Dating for Men' AND (this is my favourite :P) 'Virtual Foreplay: Making Your Online Realationship in Real Life a Success'.
Followed by another ISK making book.
Co-incidence? I don't think so. :P If it is, I find it incredibly amusing. XD
AUTHORS NOTE: I AM working on some new blog posts, I have 3 in draft stages, 2 of them EVE Online related. Plus another couple of ideas. One will determinately be on the BIG battle/newbies type thing, another will be on me being bored and going down to B-R5 at 3am this morning, and another will be on ISK (and how poor I am after using an asset calc tool :P)
Wednesday, February 5, 2014
It Means Something...
Okay, this time I need to rant. I need to let this one out cause it's pissing me off. Short and simple and to the point.
I got annoyed a month or so ago, when I started a MLP battle thread, like me and Kaeda had, on the R1FTA forums once ages ago. It was a lot of fun to do, and I can't speak for him, but I'm sure it amused Kaeda, and quite a few other people on said forums. I posted this new one on the Molden Heath forums, and within an hour, there was a poll on it saying 'Should this thread be shut down?', and numerous comments saying 'Oh God help us we're all going to die' sort of sentiments. I specifically put in the title a warning saying 'MLP warning, if you don't like don't look' or something similar and yet, people who have absolutely no interest in it whatsoever, were going in, commenting, and getting it shut down. I took the thread down, angry, and then went to bed, forgetting all about it. If you don't like it, don't look.
But that's only ponies, sure. What does that matter? It doesn't. But what I posted today does.
I'm still young, yes. Sometimes I have hopes for the future yeah? And yes, I understand media and politicians and the news and all them can't be trusted. But I get annoyed when I post something that matters to me on some forums, the sort of forums accessed by people who I consider friends, and it gets shot down because of cynicism and contempt for another organisation, of which I am in no way affiliated, but is helping me- little me, and tons of other people ACTUALLY have a say in something that matters.
Yes it might be all over-exaggerated, and yeah, I'm sure dodgy stuff is going on behind the scenes, facts have been fudged, people are lying... I know all that. I'm young, but not stupid.
What irritates me is the fact that it matters. I don't care what facts are being fudged. Bogus or not, the protection of The Great Barrier Reef, is, to me, of the utmost importance. I like the idea of having a world for my future children and grandchildren, and no, I'm not the greeny-type, foody person. I like my electricity, my creature comforts, my meat.
You don't have to share what I think, I am not trying to push my opinions, thoughts, hopes, dreams or intentions on anyone. But I would appreciate not hating on the fact that for once in my life I am trying to do some good.
Sincerely,
Jess.
I got annoyed a month or so ago, when I started a MLP battle thread, like me and Kaeda had, on the R1FTA forums once ages ago. It was a lot of fun to do, and I can't speak for him, but I'm sure it amused Kaeda, and quite a few other people on said forums. I posted this new one on the Molden Heath forums, and within an hour, there was a poll on it saying 'Should this thread be shut down?', and numerous comments saying 'Oh God help us we're all going to die' sort of sentiments. I specifically put in the title a warning saying 'MLP warning, if you don't like don't look' or something similar and yet, people who have absolutely no interest in it whatsoever, were going in, commenting, and getting it shut down. I took the thread down, angry, and then went to bed, forgetting all about it. If you don't like it, don't look.
But that's only ponies, sure. What does that matter? It doesn't. But what I posted today does.
I'm still young, yes. Sometimes I have hopes for the future yeah? And yes, I understand media and politicians and the news and all them can't be trusted. But I get annoyed when I post something that matters to me on some forums, the sort of forums accessed by people who I consider friends, and it gets shot down because of cynicism and contempt for another organisation, of which I am in no way affiliated, but is helping me- little me, and tons of other people ACTUALLY have a say in something that matters.
Yes it might be all over-exaggerated, and yeah, I'm sure dodgy stuff is going on behind the scenes, facts have been fudged, people are lying... I know all that. I'm young, but not stupid.
What irritates me is the fact that it matters. I don't care what facts are being fudged. Bogus or not, the protection of The Great Barrier Reef, is, to me, of the utmost importance. I like the idea of having a world for my future children and grandchildren, and no, I'm not the greeny-type, foody person. I like my electricity, my creature comforts, my meat.
You don't have to share what I think, I am not trying to push my opinions, thoughts, hopes, dreams or intentions on anyone. But I would appreciate not hating on the fact that for once in my life I am trying to do some good.
Sincerely,
Jess.
Friday, January 31, 2014
The (EVE) Road Less Travelled
EVE is big.
I don't know if you've ever noticed, but this universe that CCP have created is ENORMOUS! Over 5000 systems of k-space! It made me wonder though... How far do people traverse across this great big universe? How far would I be willing to travel just to say 'I've been there'? Are the sites CCP has planted around the game worth going to take a peep at? It made me think about where I've been myself, and so, bored, I hopped on EVE, opened up my map, and had a play with the control panel!
I'm gonna take a quick side step here for a bit of background on this sudden idea/plan/plot- of which I will explain in a second.
I went to see the Doctor Who Symphonic Spectacular tonight with my family. :) (Link: http://www.doctorwhosymphonicspectacular.com/)
I don't really watch Doctor Who, and I am by no means a 'Whoovian'. I know enough to get easy jokes, and I watch the occasional episode because my dad is addicted to it and sometimes I like sitting on the couch in the lounge room!
To be honest though, I love orchestras. I've now seen the Melbourne Symphony Orchestra twice now, once for 'The Impossible Orchestra'- a 24 hours straight performance to raise money for charity, and the second time tonight. Very talented people that. There's something about sitting in a room lit up, with an excited looking conductor who gets into the performance, the loud, beautiful music that just seems to resonate around you... and you know what?
A few of these particular pieces (maybe due to the footage being played on the big screen behind them :P) made me instantly think of my dear EVE.
This was initially brought on by my family asking me on the way to the Exhibition Center about the big massive EVE battle that everyone seems to know about, and so I went off on this much-longer-than-they-were-interested-in story about the background story/war and the mechanics and Titans and how the fleets and fights and standings and training works... etc. I mentioned they were putting something in the 'battle system' to commemorate the event, and I suddenly realised it was being implemented tonight!
Still regretting the fact I didn't hop over there for the big fight to take pictures (even though I probably would have crashed halfway there :P), I decided then and there that at some point in the very near future- I am going to see this monument. Yes its a bunch of wrecks but there's something about being able to say, 'I've been there'. Its for exactly that reason that me, Brink and Lucas accompanied Merk to the EVE gate a few nights ago. So he could say 'I've been there' (even after declaring it a waste of time and boring and pointless :P).
So... going back to my map playing with/crazy idea. I looked at the route to B-R5RB from my spot in Bosena. 33 jumps if you go quickest- through high sec. 106 if you go low sec only :P I know which one looks more interesting :P
This led me to thinking, well.. back to the map. Lets see just how big this thing is. :P
Uhhh.. a long way. But still, could be fun with small, fast things, non shiny, empty pods etc. So I posted on various forums saying 'who wants to do something down to there?' So we'll see. hehe. I'll probs still just be left alone, going by myself... (although Remi offered to come with so that's one!)
Anyways, from this map, and from playing before, I realised I had it set to show places I've visited. See all those red/yellow dots? I've been there! XD It reminds me once more of the grand scale of this universe... here's one without the names....
o.O I've only seen that tiny handful of space.....??? Jeepers. I got a long way to go! XD On a fun note, can totally see where Altaen took us for those null inty roams. :P
But there we go. We'll see if I end up going to B-R, but if not, I'm at least setting me a goal to make more of those red and yellow dots!
Oh, and before I forget, this week when I tagged along for Peri's Tuesday Night Fleet, we went into null, into goons space, and experienced many bubbles.. one group of which made us all laugh at the OCD (or boredom :P). Got some nice screenshots I'ma quickly add here. :)
I don't know if you've ever noticed, but this universe that CCP have created is ENORMOUS! Over 5000 systems of k-space! It made me wonder though... How far do people traverse across this great big universe? How far would I be willing to travel just to say 'I've been there'? Are the sites CCP has planted around the game worth going to take a peep at? It made me think about where I've been myself, and so, bored, I hopped on EVE, opened up my map, and had a play with the control panel!
I'm gonna take a quick side step here for a bit of background on this sudden idea/plan/plot- of which I will explain in a second.
I went to see the Doctor Who Symphonic Spectacular tonight with my family. :) (Link: http://www.doctorwhosymphonicspectacular.com/)
!Random Snaps!
I don't really watch Doctor Who, and I am by no means a 'Whoovian'. I know enough to get easy jokes, and I watch the occasional episode because my dad is addicted to it and sometimes I like sitting on the couch in the lounge room!
To be honest though, I love orchestras. I've now seen the Melbourne Symphony Orchestra twice now, once for 'The Impossible Orchestra'- a 24 hours straight performance to raise money for charity, and the second time tonight. Very talented people that. There's something about sitting in a room lit up, with an excited looking conductor who gets into the performance, the loud, beautiful music that just seems to resonate around you... and you know what?
A few of these particular pieces (maybe due to the footage being played on the big screen behind them :P) made me instantly think of my dear EVE.
This was initially brought on by my family asking me on the way to the Exhibition Center about the big massive EVE battle that everyone seems to know about, and so I went off on this much-longer-than-they-were-interested-in story about the background story/war and the mechanics and Titans and how the fleets and fights and standings and training works... etc. I mentioned they were putting something in the 'battle system' to commemorate the event, and I suddenly realised it was being implemented tonight!
Still regretting the fact I didn't hop over there for the big fight to take pictures (even though I probably would have crashed halfway there :P), I decided then and there that at some point in the very near future- I am going to see this monument. Yes its a bunch of wrecks but there's something about being able to say, 'I've been there'. Its for exactly that reason that me, Brink and Lucas accompanied Merk to the EVE gate a few nights ago. So he could say 'I've been there' (even after declaring it a waste of time and boring and pointless :P).
So... going back to my map playing with/crazy idea. I looked at the route to B-R5RB from my spot in Bosena. 33 jumps if you go quickest- through high sec. 106 if you go low sec only :P I know which one looks more interesting :P
This led me to thinking, well.. back to the map. Lets see just how big this thing is. :P
Uhhh.. a long way. But still, could be fun with small, fast things, non shiny, empty pods etc. So I posted on various forums saying 'who wants to do something down to there?' So we'll see. hehe. I'll probs still just be left alone, going by myself... (although Remi offered to come with so that's one!)
Anyways, from this map, and from playing before, I realised I had it set to show places I've visited. See all those red/yellow dots? I've been there! XD It reminds me once more of the grand scale of this universe... here's one without the names....
o.O I've only seen that tiny handful of space.....??? Jeepers. I got a long way to go! XD On a fun note, can totally see where Altaen took us for those null inty roams. :P
But there we go. We'll see if I end up going to B-R, but if not, I'm at least setting me a goal to make more of those red and yellow dots!
Oh, and before I forget, this week when I tagged along for Peri's Tuesday Night Fleet, we went into null, into goons space, and experienced many bubbles.. one group of which made us all laugh at the OCD (or boredom :P). Got some nice screenshots I'ma quickly add here. :)
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Okay, I screwed up... LOL!
I have, today, been made aware of a blog post/jokey article, written by a mystery person, someone who obviously knows both me and 3D, or at least me closely, that is very minorly- while very, VERY funny- making fun of me. I do find it amusing, and I was in tears laughing, reading it when I first got the link. It was only afterwards that I realised it could be taken in such a way, and I instantly felt some of my amusement drop off a little, particularly after a very negative private chat that turned it into a big negative bubble, not simply just some funny, silly, just for fun tabloid-esque article. http://theblobserver.wordpress.com/2014/01/27/naughty-cargo-accuses-3d-horrorshow-of-building-his-career-by-trashing-hers/
I find this epically, awesomely funny, and everytime I read it I have to giggle. But I figure I needed to say something, for those who see it in that possible negative way (inspired by said chat).
I've always been a loud, talkative, rather friendly person. I've always been open about the way I feel about things, and I enjoy a good conversation as much as the next person. EVE Online is the first game in which I've becoming socially invested, and what can I say other than its something I'm not used to. I see the people around me as friends, and feel, that in my own way, I can speak to some of them about both the in game, and rl problems, ideas and thoughts I have.
In a way, I forget this is a computer game, and I forget that, no matter how much I see them as friend, some people just don't give a flying rat's ass about what's going on in my life.
I am an emotional person. I always have been. It's one of my greatest strengths, but also one of my greatest faults too. To the point of overly emotional. I let my feelings get carried away, and I say things that I otherwise (with thought) wouldn't (OR SHOULDN'T) share, either publicly or with only a small group. I rant- everyone knows it, and I know I do it. I shouldn't, but I just can't help myself. In that way, I am rather ashamed of the way I act at some times, and am pretty sure I would have a lot more opportunities, people to call friend, and respect than I do now if I had of just kept my big ass mouth shut.
I should not share personal details with strangers (because that's what everyone starts out as), and definitely not publicly. The internet will never, and has never been a secret place, and one of the stupidest things you can do is run your mouth on a forum, a chat site, a comments page... the list goes on.
I did bad in spreading my drama around EVE channels, forums and chats, and for that, I send out a apology. I should not create the mayhem that I have in the past, and I am sorry if it has in some way offended or annoyed you. That was not my intention in saying such things.
I'm only 21, I still have a lot of life learning to do, and I will still find this post incredibly amusing, and will continue to do so (whoever wrote this has amused me greatly).
I find this epically, awesomely funny, and everytime I read it I have to giggle. But I figure I needed to say something, for those who see it in that possible negative way (inspired by said chat).
I've always been a loud, talkative, rather friendly person. I've always been open about the way I feel about things, and I enjoy a good conversation as much as the next person. EVE Online is the first game in which I've becoming socially invested, and what can I say other than its something I'm not used to. I see the people around me as friends, and feel, that in my own way, I can speak to some of them about both the in game, and rl problems, ideas and thoughts I have.
In a way, I forget this is a computer game, and I forget that, no matter how much I see them as friend, some people just don't give a flying rat's ass about what's going on in my life.
I am an emotional person. I always have been. It's one of my greatest strengths, but also one of my greatest faults too. To the point of overly emotional. I let my feelings get carried away, and I say things that I otherwise (with thought) wouldn't (OR SHOULDN'T) share, either publicly or with only a small group. I rant- everyone knows it, and I know I do it. I shouldn't, but I just can't help myself. In that way, I am rather ashamed of the way I act at some times, and am pretty sure I would have a lot more opportunities, people to call friend, and respect than I do now if I had of just kept my big ass mouth shut.
I should not share personal details with strangers (because that's what everyone starts out as), and definitely not publicly. The internet will never, and has never been a secret place, and one of the stupidest things you can do is run your mouth on a forum, a chat site, a comments page... the list goes on.
I did bad in spreading my drama around EVE channels, forums and chats, and for that, I send out a apology. I should not create the mayhem that I have in the past, and I am sorry if it has in some way offended or annoyed you. That was not my intention in saying such things.
I'm only 21, I still have a lot of life learning to do, and I will still find this post incredibly amusing, and will continue to do so (whoever wrote this has amused me greatly).
Monday, January 27, 2014
AU-NZ and Madness!!
So... EVE Online. :P Its here folks! I promised you I'd write something about it!
Now, as some of you know by now, I moved to Avenod. All of the stuffs. I have one ship in Molden Heath, just for 'it will always be home's sake. (Thanks to max and the guys for that move ^.^). This means, yes... I have joined Convicts and Savages- the AU-NZ tz corp of the infamous alliance, Shadow Cartel. I am now a member of this illustiorous, albeit ragtag, tournament participating, POCO-bashing alliance full of awesome-seeming people. :)
While I haven't really done much in the big fleet category while settling in, (and the fact that I'm absolutely terrified of such a thing) and getting to know my corp and alliance mates (sort of), I have done a few little ganking ops here and there, and today had a brief roam type thing in frigates- which I had to leave only a few jumps out cause me and mum decided to go to the beach on this beautiful Australia Day public holiday, but we did kill a SCARY incursus!!! XD.
I love the laid back attitude of most of the people I've met so far :) Yes there's bound to be someone I'll butt heads with at some point, but everyone I've talked to or heard on comms seems to be a pleasant, happy, helpful and friendly guy (and/or one girl) who enjoys the game and, while wanting to have that green kb, always tries to do the best that they can with what they have.
The corp itself, AU-NZ being the ticker, is an interesting bunch, most of which are indeed living up to the name we've been given :P More the savages side really, but fun none-the-less. ^.^ Hehhe. I never gave a thought to the difference between my American friends and their 'comms culture, I'm gonna dub it, the EU's and their comms culture, and my dear old Aussies culture. It really does feel great just being able to come on comms, joke about something, have some of that funny coarse humour that makes Australia so unique, and then all just chillin around doing some (as its been dubbed) LEET PVP- more commonly known as gate camping :P Or ganking, depending on the mood XD
In all honesty though, we're gonna be having some more roams soon, and its gonna be great. Poor Ohm's (<3 Ohm's) tried organising a couple of fleets a couple of Sunday's in a row, and both times there was another fleet that overlapped with the time, or just plain and simple no one on. But we're gonna just roam out whenever (like today, when we were sitting on comms and Ohm's was in a frigate just wandering around and we said 'fuck it, lets all get frigs and join him and kill some shit' :P). Sidenote- I missed flying my slasher. Feels sorta weird though. So used to the Jag's MWD and long point!
As for fleets coming up, nudge nudge wink wink to Ohm's- I has a PoHAC Thorax all fitted up... :P
Anyways, on a more general note, the difference between the alliances/corps I have been a part of so far, and of this new, much bigger alliance didn't really seem that apparent, until I look on forums and see the team for the alliance tournament sign ups, the participation in a massive fleet with RvB and Tuskers, the new eden open being talked about as a possibility.... its crazy! So many things I always heard about and watched, but never really thought about! And peers of mine- new friends, and doing these things! Even Ohm's was offered a spot on the Alliance Tournie team! Someone I know pretty well. It's all close to me now, and I admit, I'm sorta excited to have someone to actually go for during the AT. XD It's gonna be good! GO SHADOW CARTEL!!
I'm very excited for what the future has in store, and I'm gonna finish it off here with the Shadow Cartel theme song (not sure if its official :P) 'The Masters of Sing Laison'.
One a totally irrelated side thought, I was sorta dissapointed I missed the Stay Frosty Frig FFA. It was at like- 3am, and I was so tired. It sounded like lots of fun, and looked like it to from what I've seen and heard. Frigs ftw!
On another totally irrelated side thought, I need more jump clones. Two is totally not enough. One is in Avenod at the moment, the other in... I think its Lisb. I'll have to check that. But its somewhere in Essence (a new fave gank spot :P). Seriously though, I'd love to have another clone in Molden Heath, and another wherever 7-2 are (cause I love those guys and fleets are always fun ^.^). If anyone can help me out with this btw, I'd be much obliged :)
AUTHORS RANDOM IRRELATED SIDE NOTE: Diziet Thomas is an epic awesome help and full of awesomely good advice. He is a great FC, he always has my back, is always very nice and kind and enjoys my silly bounciness, so thanks and props to him for that :) It makes my EVE day a lot of the time. :)
IMPORTANT QUESTIONS: I'm thinking of writing some EVE fiction, what do you reckon peeps? Whats should it be about? Also, should I or should I not post the BBC tv drama inspired screenplay I was working on featuring characters based off Peri Simone, Kaeda Maxwell and Vincent Ry'leh (or however ya spell his name XD), all of which helped me with it at some point while very drunk on comms :P? What do you think?
Now, as some of you know by now, I moved to Avenod. All of the stuffs. I have one ship in Molden Heath, just for 'it will always be home's sake. (Thanks to max and the guys for that move ^.^). This means, yes... I have joined Convicts and Savages- the AU-NZ tz corp of the infamous alliance, Shadow Cartel. I am now a member of this illustiorous, albeit ragtag, tournament participating, POCO-bashing alliance full of awesome-seeming people. :)
While I haven't really done much in the big fleet category while settling in, (and the fact that I'm absolutely terrified of such a thing) and getting to know my corp and alliance mates (sort of), I have done a few little ganking ops here and there, and today had a brief roam type thing in frigates- which I had to leave only a few jumps out cause me and mum decided to go to the beach on this beautiful Australia Day public holiday, but we did kill a SCARY incursus!!! XD.
I love the laid back attitude of most of the people I've met so far :) Yes there's bound to be someone I'll butt heads with at some point, but everyone I've talked to or heard on comms seems to be a pleasant, happy, helpful and friendly guy (and/or one girl) who enjoys the game and, while wanting to have that green kb, always tries to do the best that they can with what they have.
The corp itself, AU-NZ being the ticker, is an interesting bunch, most of which are indeed living up to the name we've been given :P More the savages side really, but fun none-the-less. ^.^ Hehhe. I never gave a thought to the difference between my American friends and their 'comms culture, I'm gonna dub it, the EU's and their comms culture, and my dear old Aussies culture. It really does feel great just being able to come on comms, joke about something, have some of that funny coarse humour that makes Australia so unique, and then all just chillin around doing some (as its been dubbed) LEET PVP- more commonly known as gate camping :P Or ganking, depending on the mood XD
In all honesty though, we're gonna be having some more roams soon, and its gonna be great. Poor Ohm's (<3 Ohm's) tried organising a couple of fleets a couple of Sunday's in a row, and both times there was another fleet that overlapped with the time, or just plain and simple no one on. But we're gonna just roam out whenever (like today, when we were sitting on comms and Ohm's was in a frigate just wandering around and we said 'fuck it, lets all get frigs and join him and kill some shit' :P). Sidenote- I missed flying my slasher. Feels sorta weird though. So used to the Jag's MWD and long point!
As for fleets coming up, nudge nudge wink wink to Ohm's- I has a PoHAC Thorax all fitted up... :P
Anyways, on a more general note, the difference between the alliances/corps I have been a part of so far, and of this new, much bigger alliance didn't really seem that apparent, until I look on forums and see the team for the alliance tournament sign ups, the participation in a massive fleet with RvB and Tuskers, the new eden open being talked about as a possibility.... its crazy! So many things I always heard about and watched, but never really thought about! And peers of mine- new friends, and doing these things! Even Ohm's was offered a spot on the Alliance Tournie team! Someone I know pretty well. It's all close to me now, and I admit, I'm sorta excited to have someone to actually go for during the AT. XD It's gonna be good! GO SHADOW CARTEL!!
I'm very excited for what the future has in store, and I'm gonna finish it off here with the Shadow Cartel theme song (not sure if its official :P) 'The Masters of Sing Laison'.
One a totally irrelated side thought, I was sorta dissapointed I missed the Stay Frosty Frig FFA. It was at like- 3am, and I was so tired. It sounded like lots of fun, and looked like it to from what I've seen and heard. Frigs ftw!
On another totally irrelated side thought, I need more jump clones. Two is totally not enough. One is in Avenod at the moment, the other in... I think its Lisb. I'll have to check that. But its somewhere in Essence (a new fave gank spot :P). Seriously though, I'd love to have another clone in Molden Heath, and another wherever 7-2 are (cause I love those guys and fleets are always fun ^.^). If anyone can help me out with this btw, I'd be much obliged :)
AUTHORS RANDOM IRRELATED SIDE NOTE: Diziet Thomas is an epic awesome help and full of awesomely good advice. He is a great FC, he always has my back, is always very nice and kind and enjoys my silly bounciness, so thanks and props to him for that :) It makes my EVE day a lot of the time. :)
IMPORTANT QUESTIONS: I'm thinking of writing some EVE fiction, what do you reckon peeps? Whats should it be about? Also, should I or should I not post the BBC tv drama inspired screenplay I was working on featuring characters based off Peri Simone, Kaeda Maxwell and Vincent Ry'leh (or however ya spell his name XD), all of which helped me with it at some point while very drunk on comms :P? What do you think?
Sunday, January 26, 2014
Into The West
I'll be doing an EVE post updating stuff this week, but I wrote this a few weeks ago, and I actually really like it. I decided I'm gonna post it here cause I'm rather proud of it :) Don't read if you don't wanna. hehe. That and I always loved this song <3
'Lay down your sweet and weary head. Night is falling; you have come to journey's end. Sleep now, and dream of the ones who came before. They are calling, from across the distant shore...'
The quiet sound of a cricket filtered into her consciousness, the breeze picking up for a split second and then dropping again. She didn't seem to be aware of much else, save for these natural things- the rustling of the leaves, the buzz of some sort of annoying insect. To those nearby, actually watching with the ones they loved, their families, or even their friends, the sun was slowly disappearing, the world a mottled orange, saturated in light and colour. Only those who would have paid particular attention to the girl lying on the bench would have noticed a small tear escape her eye at its corner, the quiet singer letting it drop, and start to create a streak of salty water down her cheek and neck.
'Why do you weep? What are these tears upon your face? Soon you will see all of your fears will pass away...''
She slowly wrapped her arms around herself as she sensed the world turn grey, the sun hiding its face, making way for the moon. She found herself wishing... wishing he was with her. 'Safe in my arms, you're only sleeping'. Hearing some footsteps nearby she paused for a second, opening her eyes, a pointless sense of hope filling her, but she shut them again as a short, well-dressed man walked past, muttering to himself.
'What can you see on the horizon? Why do the white gulls call? Across the sea, a pale moon rises. The ships have come to carry you home.'
Feeling a sudden need to move, she stands, walking to the barrier made of concrete, the old stand that no doubt used to hold one of those tourist binoculars. Slipping up onto the railing she wiped a hand across her face, streaking the trail of tears across her cheek, wiping again and making it all disappear. Taking a deep breath she looked up at the moon- a full moon. The first stars had crept out into the sky from their hiding places watching the world below as she watches them with hope, sorrow and a deep sense of joy- joy in being alive.. of being healthy... of indeed merely having hope.
'And all will turn... To silver glass. A light on the water... All souls pass....'
Sitting up, her balance centred on the solid bar underneath her, she looked out onto the city below her, the lights starting to glint as if some strange sort of presence was flicking the lights on and off so quickly that the mind couldn't even perceive the change, just a small flicker... Some strange entity enjoying the almost mesmerising movement of it. The bay could be seen, floating lights marking where the big ships and fishing boats still dwelled, hoping for a catch or sailing off to distant places. It brought back memories of one who had worked on those ships... and she smothered them quickly, remembering instead him. Her dearest love... him helping her....
'Hope fades, into the world of night. Through shadows falling... out of memory and time...'
Simpleness, a slight push was all she had needed. Encouragement... a reminder that life was worth living. That she herself was worth something. In a way, he had saved her from sinking so deep into a dark hole, one that let no light in, that looked inviting at its entrance but once in its twisted walls you realise it is endless and dark, twisting and turning, often giving false upward trails... Shutting her eyes she left the thoughts there, a small smile settling on her face as a new thought appeared.... Them.. here... Him standing behind her, holding her, the feeling of love... He was not gone forever, and she knew they would come back here. When he returned. This was their spot, and always would be. He would be back... she knew it. A small whisper...
'Don't say: We have come now to the end... White shores are calling, you and I will meet again... And you'll be here in my arms, just sleeping...'
She had helped him in return she knew, and him being away had been the result, but she knew it was worth it. It was all so worth it. She peered out at the world, as unseeing as if she had shut her eyes, an eternal perspective drawn out in front of her. Such a short time... that seemed forever so close... so long... and yet would measure to be such a small speck on the story of her life...
'What can you see on the horizon? Why do the white gulls call? Across the sea... A pale moon rises. The ships have come to carry you home...'
Looking back up at the sky, she brushes her hand across her lips, feeling the softness, knowing what she wanted was slightly too far out of reach. The sky a deep blue, almost a grey now, the lights of the land... the contrast... it all disappeared again, irrelevant as she slipped of the rail moving back to the bench and sitting down quietly, her bare feet making no sound on the cool of the concrete.
'And all will turn... To silver glass. A light on the water... Grey ships pass.....'
Picking up the book she had, along with the paper and a pen, she let the tears fall again as she remembered, as she wrote... and as she felt to words emerge from her very heart and soul... to be read by only one man. One love.... her chosen.
'Into the West....'
Into the West- Annie Lennox
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INTO THE WEST
Letting out a deep breath she lies down on the wooden bench, the squeaking of the timbers shifting with her, making her smile with something akin to amusement. Quickly scrunching up her jumper and sticking it under her head as a pillow, she looked up at the quickly fading orange and purple of the sky, streaks of colour breaking up the normal blue in shocking displays of radiance. A light breeze blew, her tightly curled hair slipping through the panels and swaying in the breeze, as if dancing to the quiet words she sang, just above a whisper, her eyes now closed.
'Lay down your sweet and weary head. Night is falling; you have come to journey's end. Sleep now, and dream of the ones who came before. They are calling, from across the distant shore...'
The quiet sound of a cricket filtered into her consciousness, the breeze picking up for a split second and then dropping again. She didn't seem to be aware of much else, save for these natural things- the rustling of the leaves, the buzz of some sort of annoying insect. To those nearby, actually watching with the ones they loved, their families, or even their friends, the sun was slowly disappearing, the world a mottled orange, saturated in light and colour. Only those who would have paid particular attention to the girl lying on the bench would have noticed a small tear escape her eye at its corner, the quiet singer letting it drop, and start to create a streak of salty water down her cheek and neck.
'Why do you weep? What are these tears upon your face? Soon you will see all of your fears will pass away...''
She slowly wrapped her arms around herself as she sensed the world turn grey, the sun hiding its face, making way for the moon. She found herself wishing... wishing he was with her. 'Safe in my arms, you're only sleeping'. Hearing some footsteps nearby she paused for a second, opening her eyes, a pointless sense of hope filling her, but she shut them again as a short, well-dressed man walked past, muttering to himself.
'What can you see on the horizon? Why do the white gulls call? Across the sea, a pale moon rises. The ships have come to carry you home.'
Feeling a sudden need to move, she stands, walking to the barrier made of concrete, the old stand that no doubt used to hold one of those tourist binoculars. Slipping up onto the railing she wiped a hand across her face, streaking the trail of tears across her cheek, wiping again and making it all disappear. Taking a deep breath she looked up at the moon- a full moon. The first stars had crept out into the sky from their hiding places watching the world below as she watches them with hope, sorrow and a deep sense of joy- joy in being alive.. of being healthy... of indeed merely having hope.
'And all will turn... To silver glass. A light on the water... All souls pass....'
Sitting up, her balance centred on the solid bar underneath her, she looked out onto the city below her, the lights starting to glint as if some strange sort of presence was flicking the lights on and off so quickly that the mind couldn't even perceive the change, just a small flicker... Some strange entity enjoying the almost mesmerising movement of it. The bay could be seen, floating lights marking where the big ships and fishing boats still dwelled, hoping for a catch or sailing off to distant places. It brought back memories of one who had worked on those ships... and she smothered them quickly, remembering instead him. Her dearest love... him helping her....
'Hope fades, into the world of night. Through shadows falling... out of memory and time...'
Simpleness, a slight push was all she had needed. Encouragement... a reminder that life was worth living. That she herself was worth something. In a way, he had saved her from sinking so deep into a dark hole, one that let no light in, that looked inviting at its entrance but once in its twisted walls you realise it is endless and dark, twisting and turning, often giving false upward trails... Shutting her eyes she left the thoughts there, a small smile settling on her face as a new thought appeared.... Them.. here... Him standing behind her, holding her, the feeling of love... He was not gone forever, and she knew they would come back here. When he returned. This was their spot, and always would be. He would be back... she knew it. A small whisper...
'Don't say: We have come now to the end... White shores are calling, you and I will meet again... And you'll be here in my arms, just sleeping...'
She had helped him in return she knew, and him being away had been the result, but she knew it was worth it. It was all so worth it. She peered out at the world, as unseeing as if she had shut her eyes, an eternal perspective drawn out in front of her. Such a short time... that seemed forever so close... so long... and yet would measure to be such a small speck on the story of her life...
'What can you see on the horizon? Why do the white gulls call? Across the sea... A pale moon rises. The ships have come to carry you home...'
Looking back up at the sky, she brushes her hand across her lips, feeling the softness, knowing what she wanted was slightly too far out of reach. The sky a deep blue, almost a grey now, the lights of the land... the contrast... it all disappeared again, irrelevant as she slipped of the rail moving back to the bench and sitting down quietly, her bare feet making no sound on the cool of the concrete.
'And all will turn... To silver glass. A light on the water... Grey ships pass.....'
Picking up the book she had, along with the paper and a pen, she let the tears fall again as she remembered, as she wrote... and as she felt to words emerge from her very heart and soul... to be read by only one man. One love.... her chosen.
'Into the West....'
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